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T H I R T Y - S I X

Grayson

I left Elle's house in a very bad state. I was an emotional wreck. Elle meant the world to me. I loved her so god damn much, I still love her so god damn much.

No one ever made me feel this way before, not even Vanessa. Elle was different, she was unique. She deserved the world, but here I am. Breaking hearts again.

I walk to my house and slam the door and fall to the floor, punching the tile with all my might. Ethan comes rushing downstairs and helps me up, my knuckles were now bloody and probably broken.

Tears were falling, I couldn't help it. My whole world was taken away from me. Elle was my world. Elle made me a better person, she was the love of my life. I will never get over her.

Ethan wraps up my knuckles and tells me to be careful and then asks what happened. Even more tears fall from my eyes as I explain what happened after Elle bailed me out.

"I-I lost her, E. I'll never get her back." My voice cracks and Ethan pulls me into a hug. I cry onto his shoulder and thank him for always being there for me.

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I get into my car and start the car. I grab my phone and unlock it, dialing Ethan's number. I wait for the car to get warm as I talk on the phone with Ethan.

"What are you doing?" He asks and I smirk, "Putting an end to things." Ethan sighs over the other end of the phone and tells me not to do anything stupid. I nod and assure him I won't.

I hang up after we said goodbye and pull out of our driveway, heading to a place I haven't been in a long time.

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I pull up to the very big house and take a deep breath before I run up to the door and knock twice. No one answers and I saw no cars around so I try to open the door, it was unlocked. Hm, weird.
I try to remember where Vanessa's room was, I hadn't been here in so long it was hard to remember, especially since her house is gigantic. I hear water draining from the bathroom that I was near and I knock on the door.

This was Vanessa's bathroom, I remember. She doesn't answer and so I push open the door and peek in and I freeze. My mouth hangs open and my heart sinks. My eyes water up and I push the door open more, allowing myself in.

I rush over and let the water drain and pick Vanessa up and set her on the bathroom floor. I try not to break down as I get out my phone and call 911. I rip a piece of my shirt off and wrap it tightly around Vanessa's wrist to slow down the blood.

When they answered I could barely get out the words that Vanessa had committed suicide. I gave the address and they sent the ambulance. I throw my phone onto her counter and look down at her. She had clothes on, cause of something like this.

My breath hitches as I see movement, but I then realize it was my finger. I let it out, the tears came. Even though I hated her for the past months, I did have something for her in the past.

This was my fault, she knew that I would tell Elle and so she committed suicide. She thought that I didn't love her anymore, she cared about me but I treated her like shit, just like I do to everyone.

It was all my fault. Everything was always my fault. I lost Elle and now Vanessa. I couldn't handle so much pain at once, I'm not used to it.

Everything would have been better if I just never got involved with Elle. She would have been happy instead of heartbroken, Vanessa would have been alive instead of dead.

The ambulance came and put Vanessa on the stretcher and led her away, they told me I couldn't come, and honestly I didn't want to, cause I already knew it was too late. Vanessa was dead, they won't be able to save her.

I wiped my eyes with my coat sleeve and jumped into my car. I drove back home and texted Elle telling her that I loved her and I was so sorry for everything, she meant the world to me and I would always be there for her.

I told Ethan that he was the best twin brother in the whole world. He always knew how to cheer me up and I don't know what I would do without my other half. He was the better part of me and I loved him more than anyone else.

I told Alissa that she was a great friend and I was sorry for all the things I put her through in Middle School. I shut my phone off and looked in the mirror at me. I was a mess.

I had lost 2 people in 1 day. I had lost myself. I had lost a lot. I lost my mind. Everything was spinning and I opened the medicine cabinet in my bathroom and locked the door.

I looked at myself one last time in the mirror before I popped open the bottle and dumped the pills in my hand. I looked down at my hand that was filled with random pills, and gulped.

I heard my phone going off and ignored it, the pills inching closer and closer to my face. I threw them into my mouth and swallowed them with a little bit of water and sat down on the floor waiting for the effect.

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