Insane Without You | A BTS Suga fanfiction- COMPLETE✅

Twenty-two

Your POV

I still haven't got the chance to find out what dad's up to because I'm so busy at the cafe. I'll have to take some time out to find out what's going on.

Just then door burst open and in came my dad looking the most happiest I've probably seen him in my whole life!

"Ahh y/n my sweet daughter. How nice is it to see you! Do you wanna go out for dinner later on tonight? I made reservations at the Grand Pearl hotel/restaurant."

I looked at my dad suspiciously and replied with a blunt and straightforward "no."

My father's expression darkened, but surprisingly he didn't lose his temper and try to kill me.
The atmosphere was tense and almost sad. All of a sudden, my dad burst out in front of me!
"Come on y/n. I'm sorry for all I've done. I loved your mother dearly." Tears started to well up in his eyes, I looked at him and yelled, "if you loved her then you would've never killed her you maniac!"
"I-I didn't know what I was doing! She cheated on me when I loved her so much!"

"Do you even know why she cheated on you? You abused her and yelled at her and went out late at night coming home drunk! God knows what you were doing when you stayed out so late!"
I was shocked as my dad kneeled down in front of me and grabbed my feet and started crying, never in my whole life have I seen him like this.

" I'm sorry! Please forgive me! I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry...."
" But dad, does all of this make up as to why you hate me?"
"I don't hate you! You're my dear and beloved y/n!" Oh wow, that's so convincing! Anger surged through me. " You don't hate me? Then since I was only a baby why did you always hurt me, both mentally and physically? Are you just trying to make me feel sympathetic for your fake a** sadness and crying!? God no! I hate you! Get out!" My father looked up, I swear I could see genuine sadness and guilt in his eyes. Suddenly he got up and hugged me, a feeling of warmth ran through me. "Please, I'd like to make it up to you, I'm sorry for the past, I really am, I understand If you don't forgive me, I really do! But I'll be better, I promise. It's just that you remind me so much of my beautiful wife. Your beautiful mother. I was so stupid and dumb back then, I want to kill myself for all of the horrible things I've done. I forgive your mother now, after hearing what you said. I'll be better, I promise, I love you!" I could feel the sadness and hurt in his voice. Even though I hated myself for doing this, I forgave him. I hugged him and cried harder.
"Just promise me you'll be better and stick to your promise. I love you dad, I forgive you." 

But I wasn't still so sure about forgiving him, maybe it was just the sympathy I felt for him...

Your dad's POV

Now I'm starting to regret my plans. After coming home from Mr.Wells place all my past memories started to flood back. I remember the first time I met y/n's mother. She was a young beautiful lady, with dark hair and eyes and beautiful pink lips. She was my only happiness. We made promises to each other about getting married, and eventually we did. Our first year together was perfect. Then she got pregnant. I remember being so happy, when I finally saw my dear y/n tears of happiness started to flood down my cheeks. But when y/n was only three years old, I took the wrong direction. I started drinking, smoking and doing drugs. My wife, she was so worried, I wanted to quit my ways and hug her telling her I was fine and that I'd always stay by her side. But the problem was that I didn't. Day after day, year after year, I ignored my family. I came home late, I cheated on my wife. Then I caught her cheating. Deep down inside I knew why she was cheating, it was because of me. But I was dumb and so I started abusing her, I could see she still loved me and yearned for my love back. My y/n was only 7 years old. She was always smiling and happy, even though I knew she knew everything. She always tried to make plans for me and her mother to get together or for us to go on family trips. But I ignored all of this. I could see my daughter always cried herself to sleep, the only thing she found happiness in was this  scrawny and pale boy named Yoongi. She and Yoongi reminded me of the times me and her mother used to be together, so young and carefree. Deep down inside I wanted to go back, but almost two decades passed and now here I am, with my wife who is dead, murdered by me, and I'm living with my heartbroken daughter that I was never able to give a good childhood to. I'm regretting the decisions I've made, and I'm so stupid for still making dumb decisions. I can't perform a murder, after killing my wife I promised to never kill anybody again! And my y/n, I love her, I don't hate her! After all I've done, I realised that I never hated her, in fact I loved her and still love her dearly. Now that Yoongi's going to be out tomorrow, I can't turn back on the offer, what will he do to my daughter when he finds her? What if he kills her? What if he's just an evil monster like me!? Ahhhhh! Why am I so stupid! I just hope that no matter what, y/n will be safe and will be able to live a happy and healthy life.

Your POV

I got dressed into a beautiful long indigo and black silk gown that my mother used to own. I brushed my hair, it didn't need to be straightened as it was already dead straight. I applied some makeup to really bring out my features and grabbed my purse. I walked down the stairs to see my dad dressed up in a black tuxedo. He looked at me and tears stared to well up in his eyes.
"You look so beautiful, it's kind of extraordinary how you look so much like your mother." I smiled and thanked my dad and complimented him. We sat in the car (borrowed car from my uncle). The atmosphere was tense and awkward but we managed silently. Finally we reached the restaurant, it was absolutely huge and gorgeous! I held my dad by the arm and walked in, earning a few stares of awe from the guys and a few stares of jealousy (or at least that's what I think) from some girls.

We sat down and soon our orders came. My dad decided to use the restroom, so I sat down admiring the food and the place. Suddenly something caught my eye. There was a notification on my dad's phone. Out of curiosity I picked up the phone and unlocked it (since it didn't have a passcode).

From Mr.Wells

Who the heck was he?

Mr.Wells: The plan is working just great. I'll release D-boy tomorrow. And how's it going with your daughter? I bet she's falling for that fake apology trap of yours. And remember the deal.

What plan? What deal? And lastly the thing that broke my heart the most was that my dad was faking all of this? I started crying, people stared. My dad walked over to the table and saw me crying.

"Hey, hey y/n what's wrong? Why are you crying?"
(Author's POV)
Suddenly he spotted the phone in her lap, he grabbed it and read the message, his eyes widened in shock as he realised just as to why y/n was crying. At first his acts of kindness to y/n were fake, but now they were genuine. He really regretted everything he'd done, and he loved y/n dearly. He tried to clear the misunderstanding but the words just couldn't fall out of his mouth. How could he tell y/n the plan? How could he tell y/n about Yoongi and how he had previously planned to use him as a weapon for y/n's murder? How could he tell her that he was only faking his kindness to her before but now it was genuine? How could he tell her he loved her more than anything and he wanted her to forgive her and love him back? How?
(Your POV)
I sat up and ran away. My dad looked at me with apologetic eyes, but nothing seemed to come out of his mouth. That's exactly what I thought. Why am I the one to always lose my loved ones or have people faking their love to me? Why is it always me!?
I ran out of the restaurant earning stares from people, my dad tried to call me back and run after me, but I ignored him and I ran faster and faster. I didn't bother to go home, I ran into a motel and got a room there for one night. I don't care if my father was looking for me, why should I even care about anything when nothing cared for me?

Your dad's POV

Ah Mr.Wells what have you done!? Jinjoon what have you done!? Where is y/n!? God knows what she's doing or where she is! I lost her the first time, I can't lose her now! She's not at home, she's not anywhere!

I sighed in frustration and anger. I'm performing the murder tomorrow, hopefully Mr.Wells will help me find my daughter by tomorrow, I'm sorry y/n, I love you.