numb.

23:06

sometimes there are brief moments where i can smell you
and during these moments my mind gets tricked into thinking it's the beginning of July, when all i thought about was you and your lips were still mine to kiss, but during these moments i am reminded how easy it is to give yourself away so quickly
it's so easy to allow someone to hold you and it's easy to say words
it's so damn easy to say words
words you do not mean and promises you forget about 5 minutes after you say them, but darling i never forgot
every single word you said to me - i love you was such a simple phrase to you, just another 3 words frequently used in your vocabulary, but not so frequently used together in one sequence
you see what you didn't understand was that this wasn't just some game to me like it was for you
i had so much to lose, while you gained either way because i was your practice round - the scrap you throw away because it just never turns out the way you want it to
darling why did you choose me?
why did you steal my first kiss?
why did you lie to me?
there are moments when i can smell you and during these moments i remember
-kenzie