numb.

00:20

perhaps i loved him too hard
or maybe i didn't kiss him enough
i should have told you that you were beautiful more often because guys need to hear it too
i should have learned your first language so that i could communicate with your mom
i should have done the things you wanted to do more cause all we ever did was walk, kiss and talk, walk, kiss and talk
or perhaps i didn't let you touch my body enough or maybe my body wasn't good enough
or maybe my hands were too big or my nose wasn't small enough
i guess my skin wasn't clear enough or i wasn't small enough or maybe i walked a little funny or i talked too much

these are the lies we tell ourselves because as soon as he doesn't love us anymore for some reason we believe that it must be our fault. what did i do? why wasn't i good enough? what does she have that i don't?

i'm sorry but..
i just wanted to get to know you by actually speaking rather than shoving my tongue down your throat
you said i wasn't like others girls cause i didn't put myself out there but then you sexualized my body as if it was yours now and no longer mine
i'm no feminist but i'd appreciate it if you respected me for the woman i am
and i have nothing to apologize for because i do deserve love and i know that now
so thank you.
-kenzie

(this is a mess, but i just needed to get it out of my head)