a break up poem about myself;
it seems to me that we're always drifting apart
every time this happens i try to hold on tighter
but your fingers slip from mine and i can see you move further and further away from me
your eyes no longer sparkle when they look into mine
and your smile isn't as wide
you don't laugh anymore.
i try to find the words to say;
the words to make you love me again
but each time i go to open my mouth my teeth betray me and clasp down on my tongue, filling my throat with blood
and as i feel it dripping into my esophagus i realize that my body knew before my brain did
i want to lock myself in my closet and absorb the tiny traces of you laced within the cotton of my clothes
i want to rip out my eyes because it hurts too much to see you with other people
i want to burn my skin to erase all of your fingerprints
i want to take back all of the things you stole from me
but i realized that in order to do that i'd probably have to kill you
some days this option seems logical considering i was already given a life sentence the day i was born
but you see i never wanted to hurt you,
i still don't
all i ever wanted was for you to be happy and i know now that in order for that to happen you have to go
it's still hard, to watch you walk away
to stand beside you and no longer feel loved
i didn't think it would hurt this much
i don't know if i can get through this without you
but i guess i don't have a choice.
-kenzie
(this probably doesn't make much sense but that's okay)
YOU ARE READING
numb.
Poetrythese are the words inside my head that i sometimes just need to get out. and hopefully you enjoy reading them
