Just friends (L.T.) [FINISHED]

8 - My feelings, your feelings...

"Wow.." he shakes his head. "That's a serious question you're asking, Yasmin." I wanted to tell him he doesn't have to answer here and now but he can say something before I can. "But if you want the truth.." That'd be awesome. "I have thought about that. A lot actually. You know I'm not good at this emotional stuff but I'm going to make an effort for you." He smiles.

"I appreciate that."

Louis takes a deep breath. "I've imagined us being together a lot. But I always thought that'd ruin our friendship and you had a boyfriend the whole time we were in middle school. For some weird reason all my friends were telling me you'd have a crush on me. I thought that was crazy and just left the idea of us being together. When Freddie was born and I looked into his eyes for the first time, I.." Are those tears I see in his eyes? "I was constantly thinking about how an amazing mom you'd be. But you know, when me and Eleanor got together I realised how much I do love her and that I'm never letting her go again. Now we're here."

"That was the most emotional thing you've ever said to me. But, like I said, I appreciate your honesty."

"If I may ask," He doesn't seems to be sure of what he's going to say. "Why are you asking this?"

"Uhm.. that's an interesting question there.." Shit, I didn't expect this to happen, which I should have. "I was kinda confused."

He looks right in my eyes. His eyes are so beautiful, I can watch at them all my life. "About?"

"Just about.. everything. My feelings, your feelings, us.. just about everything but it's okay now." What a lie.

"You were confused about my feelings? Am I that unclear?"

I look at the ground, Louis keeps looking at me. "Sometimes."

"I never noticed.. Wait, I didn't give some kind of mixed feelings or did I?" You could see on his face he was scared of hearing the answer.

Should I tell him? Yes, then he knows. "Well, sort of.." I don't have the courage to look him in the eyes.

"Oh.. I didn't realise what I was doing.. I'm so sorry. I hope I didn't hurt you.."

"No, you didn't. I don't have feelings for you so it's okay."

"Great.." He gets a text. "It's Eleanor." Oh no.. "I have to go."

"Okay." I put a smile on my face, trying to hold my tears back. Louis gives me a quick hug and leaves.