Just friends (L.T.) [FINISHED]

7 - Have you ever imagined?

Song: Am I Wrong?
Artist: Nico & Vinz

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I want it to stop. I want all those old memories of Louis & me getting married to stop. I want my heart ache to stop. I want Louis to love me, not someone else. All these are never going to happen, I know.

I've got to talk to him. Before he gets married, I want a serious conversation. I take my phone and text him immediately.

'Can we meet up?'

L: 'Sure. What's up?'

'We need to talk. It's really important.'

L: 'Should I come over?'

'That'd be great.'

L: 'Okay, I'm on my way. See you in 10.'

'See you then.'

The more time passes by, the more I start to doubt if this was a good idea. But there's no way back. We'll just have this conversation, just like two adults. Maybe this will change our friendship forever but I'm willing to take that risk. I need certainty, I need to know.

There goes the bell. I'm totally panicking inside for what's going to happen but I'm telling myself it's for the best, for everyone. My heart skips a few beats when I open the door and see Louis standing in front of me, looking like he does. He comes inside and gives me a hug, I can smell his hair. This feels so good, I never want to lose this. Maybe this isn't worth it. Oh shut up, Yasmin! This is your first, only and last chance; soon he'll be married.

"So, Yasmin," he lets go of me. "You kinda made me worried." he says and takes a seat at the kitchen table. He starts to eat one of the cookies I had set on the table. "What's going on?"

Feeling uncomfortable, I take a seat as well and put some water in one of the glasses. "I just wanted to ask if.. eh.." Oh lord, save me. "Ugh, how do I put this?"

"I have no idea how you put it because I have no idea what you're talking about." He jokes, trying  to interrupt the awkward silence. In vain.

"Do you remember when we were still those innocent little kids?" I bet he doesn't remember a thing of that time.

But he surprises me. "I do. We were some irritating kids, weren't we? We've been in trouble a lot." I see sparkles in his eyes, thinking back at that time. "But why are you bringing that back up so suddenly?"

Here comes the worst part. "Do you still remember when we.. this will sound weird but.." I catch myself stuttering.

He takes my hand. "You are shaking. Are you sure everything is all right? Is there something I can do?"

"You can give an honest answer to my questions. That'd mean a lot to me."

He nodds his head. "Sure."

"When we were so young we used to talk about.." I can't even get the words out of my mouth. "We were just joking around and stuff but.. eh.. we said we'd marry each other. Do you remember that?"

"How could I forget? I remember so much conversation we had back then. But I've got the feeling that's not the only thing you wanted to ask me."

"You're right." I look around in the kitchen and notice I left a drawer open.

His voice interrups me from avoiding the situation. "What's the actual question?"

I have no other choice than just saying it. "Did you ever take those things serious? I mean.. Have you ever thought about "us", because I did. Have you imagined that we could be.. like.. in a relationship or something?"