Raising His Baby

The Dream

I knew I was dreaming because he was there. He was playing with our son and we were together like a family. I missed him so much and all I ever wanted to do was see him and tell him about our son. I heard our son cry and knew it was time to snap back into reality. I got up and walked over to his room across the hall. He looks just like his father. I picked him up and rocked him a little to calm him down. "Aigoo my Jaeyoungie is 7 months today!" I gave him a kiss and rocked him until he fell back asleep. I checked the time 6am I know a certain someone would be calling soon so I just stayed awake. My phone started ringing and I already knew who it was. "Good morning sleeping beauty is my nephew awake? I know he turns 7 months today and we want to see him." He's so predictable every week he calls at the same time. "Shhhh keep it down Joey! You'll wake him up. Why do you have to call so early?" I knew he didn't mean any harm by calling so early but sometimes I wanted a little extra sleep. "Sorry Ly, I just miss you and the baby. I haven't seen y'all in forever." I sighed he's honestly so dramatic. "Joey it's literally been a week. Besides, you were working all week remember? Anyways, what time should I bring him?" I could almost see his grin when he spoke. "Asap! we'll be home all day, but I do want to take you both shopping. I know he needs new clothes and toys now that he's getting bigger." Why does he always want to go shopping? "Okay I'll call you when he wakes up." I hung up before
he could say anything and walked back to my son's room and watched him sleep a little. If his dad would see him he'd know for sure Jaeyoung is his. I put his dad's plushie next to him and took a picture of them together. Sadly, this is the only way my son will get a picture with his dad.

I know I may seem like a bad mom for keeping them apart, but I have my reasons. My son's dad is a member of the Kpop group GOT7. I was so in love with his dad and so happy with him, but it all changed when I found out I was pregnant. I didn't want to hurt his career or the groups image so I left secretly and have been raising our son on my own. I feel even worse
because he doesn't even know our son exists. We haven't spoken in 15 months and I miss him every day. I met my son's father through Mark. When Mark lived in America we were best friends, and when he joined Got7 he thought me and Jaeyoung's dad would get along so he introduced us. Little did we know we'd do more than get along and fall head over heels for each other. Jaeyoung's dad was like the sun to my day and the moon to my nights. After I left Korea I came back to America and went into hiding. The Tuans found me and when they saw I was pregnant they were shocked. I asked them to keep my secret and they agreed, but only if I kept in touch with them. They were with me for my entire pregnancy and helped me prepare for my son. I know it was hard for them to keep my secret from Mark but they did. Joey and I became close and he's the best uncle my son could ever ask for. He has been with us through every step of the way and was with me when I went into labor and had Jae.

I got dressed and waited for Jae to wake up. I texted Joey to come around 8 and he was at my door at 7:59. We went for a quick breakfast and talked about our plans for the day. I noticed he wanted to say something but he was a little hesitant. "Hey Ly, they're going to come for Kcon and stay for a few days. Will you be ok alone?" I didn't realize it was time for Kcon already it seems like I just left Korea. "I'll be fine don't worry. If you can come by though please do. I'm sure Jae will miss you if you don't." His face lit up after I said that. "Don't worry I will. I can't go to long without seeing this little guy." He picked Jae up and played with him while I finished eating. We went shopping after and Joey got the baby so much stuff. I swear he spoils my son way to much. I have to admit it everytime we're together we always have a good time and Jae smiles the entire time. I feel like I'm robbing Joey of his youth sometimes though. When he could be out partying or just going with his friends he stays with us and we have movie night or day trips. I don't know what I'll do if he meets someone. I know I'll be happy but it will be hard for Jae if he gets to attached. I guess I'll just have to cross that bridge when I get to it. For now I'll enjoy the time we have together and let him be the person Jae can look up to.

Thank you for reading the first chapter. Let me know what you think! Have a great day!