Raising His Baby

It's Over

I looked over to the door and Joey groaned. "Can you give us a second please?" I slapped his arm and put my hands on his chest. "Baby we can always finish later Jae's crying." I could see he was upset and I didn't want to stop either but my son was crying. "I'm sorry I don't know what to do he won't stop crying." Jinyoung's voice sounded desperate so I tried to push Joey off so I could get Jae. "I'm sorry baby." I whispered to him and he smiled and kissed my cheek. "It's ok baby we always have next time." He eased off of me and fumbled to put some clothes on. "Come on Joey hurry up Jaes screaming out here!" I felt so embarrassed when I heard Mark's voice. I cleaned myself up and threw on one of Joey's shirts. He smiled when he saw me in his clothes and opened the door. "Dada..dada" Jae was crying and reaching out for Joey. Jinyoung frowned but handed him over to Joey. "What's wrong little guy? I thought you were going to be a good boy for daddy." I snapped my head up when I heard him say daddy and so did Jinyoung. "Daddy" Joey pointed to Jinyoung. "Dada" He pointed to himself. I smiled and looked over to Jinyoung. He was staring at me with sad eyes. "Sorry if we interrupted. I'm still new at watching kids." Jinyoung half smiled at me. "It's ok dude you'll get used to it. It gets easier over time." Joey smiled at Jinyoung and handed Jae back to him. As soon as Jinyoung grabbed him he began to scream again and my heart hurt. It was my fault my son didn't know his father, and it's my fault my son thinks Joey's his dad. I grabbed Jae from Jinyoung's arms and calmed him down. "I'll be back I'm going to take Jae back to his room and see if he can become more familiar with his dad." Jinyoung's face lit up and Joey nodded and walked back to the bed.

When we got to Jinyoung's room Jae started to cry again and tried to find my nipple. "You can't be hungry again you ate not too long ago." I sat on the bed and placed Jae on my lap so I could feed him. Jinyoung stared at me while I lifted my shirt so I turned away in case there were any hickeys. Jae latched on for a minute or so then started to cry. I put my shirt down and started to sing to him since that usually calmed him down but it didn't work. "Here let me try." Jinyoung smiled and started to sing Fly. Jae calmed down and I rocked him while Jinyoung sang to him. He eventually fell asleep in my arms and I felt relieved. "That's one of his favorite songs. I always play that for him when he's upset." Jinyoung smiled and tried to get Jae from me but the moment we moved him he began to cry again. He began to search for my nipple again so I quickly went to feed him. Jinyoung caressed his face and watched him as he ate. Jae began to cry again so I stood up to rock him. "Please Jagi put some shorts on. I'm trying my best not to look but your shirt isn't very long." I blushed and realized I didn't have shorts on underneath. I quickly put some on and rocked Jae until he calmed down. When Jae fell asleep I was sitting on the bed with Jinyoung and Jae was between us. I looked over to see Jinyoung fast asleep with Jae and let sleep take over me as well.

I woke up when I felt the sun on my face and saw Jinyoung and Jae still sleeping. I went to grab his phone and took a quick picture. I unlocked his phone so I could send the picture to myself, but froze when I saw his lock screen. It was a picture of us, the last one we took together.

<FLASHBACK>
"Jagi where are you?"
"Oppa come find me!"
"Gotcha!"
I squealed when I felt his cold hands wrap around my waist.
"I got you now Jagi and there's nothing you can do about it! Try to get away from me now!"
"Oppa I love you too much to leave you! Besides where would I go without you"
He kissed my forehead and pulled me in for a hug.
"Hurry let's go inside before anyone sees us." I followed him inside the dorm and wanted to vomit when I smelled whatever the boys were cooking. I ran to the restroom and hovered over the toilet. I haven't been feeling well lately and have a doctors appointment scheduled in a few days. Jinyoung ran into the restroom to check on me, but I didn't want him to worry so I said I was ok. After I washed up I went to his room and cuddled with him.
"Jagi lets take a new picture."
We positioned ourselves and when he snapped the photo I kissed his cheek. I'm so in love with this boy and I'm so lucky he's mine. I don't mind hiding our relationship because I know he loves me and I love him. I just want this moment to last forever.

End of flashback
A tear rolled down when I thought of that day and I quickly wiped it away when Jinyoung sat up. "Morning, Jagi why do you have my phone?" I handed it over to him as quickly as possible. "I'm sorry I wanted to take a picture of you two and program my number. I promise I didn't go through it." He chuckled and gave our son a quick kiss on the cheek. We sat there in silence for a moment and when he was about to speak Jae started to cry. His crying turned into screaming and I began to freak out.