Raising His Baby

Drunken Truth

I had just finished pumping when I heard the doorbell. Jae had just fallen asleep so I was praying he wouldn't wake up. I opened the door and all 7 of them plus Joey came stumbling in. "Jagi IIII missseeeddd yyoouuu" They reeked of alcohol and I knew they were drunk. "What the hell happened? Why is everyone drunk?" Jinyoung stumbled closer to me and nearly knocked the coffee table over. "Jagi didn't you miss me? Where's our son? Did he miss daddy? Remember you used to call me that? Now our son does!" My face got red and I pushed him off when he tried to hold me. "YAH Lyra if you ever leave us again I'll come find you and my nephew! Do you hear me?" Mark's loud voice projected throughout the house and I rushed to cover his mouth. "Shhhh you're going to wake your precious nephew up if you keep screaming like that!" He sat back on the couch and the other members tried to sit down as well. "Jagi our son is so perfect. Thank you for bringing him into my life. I hope we can be a family again because I miss you so much. I already told the girl I'm working on the movie with that the love of my life has returned. I want to tell the whole world about my future wife!" I stared at him with my mouth wide open and my heart pounding. "Don't rub it in Jinyoung! I said I'm ok with y'all working it out, but I will always be there for her and Jae no matter what!" Joey gave Jinyoung a serious stare and I smiled a bit when we made eye contact. Jinyoung stumbled towards me and put his hand around my waist to pull me closer. "Guys I told you I'd find her. I never gave up and I never will. Did everyone see my son? He's so amazing just like his mom. Jagi I love you so much. I can't wait until you fall back in love with me again." I stood there frozen and staring into his deep brown eyes. The others were laughing and watching Jinyoung confess his love for me. "Y'all need to make up soon. We aren't going to be here forever." My heart sank when I heard Jb say that. I don't want them to leave, but I'm not ready to tell the world about our son. Jinyoung held my face and made me face him. "Jagi have you decided yet?" I shook my head and his eyes filled with sadness. "I understand" He put his head down and my heart began to ache. "I think everyone should go to bed it's late." They all nodded and went their separate ways. Jinyoung and Joey both followed me, but Joey turned around when he saw Jinyoung enter my room. "Sorry old habits." Jinyoung nodded and closed the door so we could be alone. He began to undress and I couldn't keep my eyes off of his perfectly sculpted body. "Jagi can I kiss you?" He stood right in front of me and stared me down. "No oppa, I don't want to do anything while your drunk okay?" He sighed and crawled into bed. "Oppa I want you to remember when we make love again. That's why I'm denying you tonight." He smiled and pulled me closer to him. "Jagi does this mean you'll be mine again?" I turned to face him and pecked his lips. "I was always yours oppa. We can take it slow and try to work it out. I know you don't want a long distance relationship, but I'm not ready to go back yet okay?" His face lit up and he smiled for the millionth time. "I understand but please come back soon. I want us to be close and be a family." He kissed me and laid his head on my chest. I felt his fingers crawl up my side and him make circles on my side. "Jinyoung don't try anything." He hummed in response and his light snores followed shortly after. I couldn't sleep and just thought about what I was going to do. I want to go back with him, but I'm just afraid of what will happen.  I slid out of his embrace and went out to the kitchen to get some water. "Can't sleep?" I nearly dropped the glass when I heard Youngjae. "Youngjae you scared me!" He chuckled and grabbed the glass from my hand. "So what's wrong?" I sighed and filled he glass after he emptied it. "I don't know if I want to go back to Korea. I want to be with all of you, but I'm scared we'll ruin the groups image. Y'all have all worked so hard and I don't want it to go to waste because of Jae and I." He shook his head and gave me a disapproving look. "What about how we feel? Why don't you think about how we want you by our side? We've known you since we were trainees. You hurt us all when you disappeared. We understand how you feel about the groups image, but what about how it hurts us to be away from you. You're Mark's best friend and sister, you're like a mom to us younger ones, a sister to the older ones, and Jinyoung's love. We love you so much and feel incomplete without you. Please come home and bring Jae home to us." He hugged me and went to the living room to lay down. I stood there for a second and thought about what he said. Maybe he's right and I shouldn't hide. Maybe I should stand beside Jinyoung and raise our son together. Deep down it's what I really want, but I was afraid to admit it. I walked back to my room and watched Jinyoung sleep a bit. He wrapped an arm around me and pulled me as close as he possibly could. "Jagi please don't leave me. I need you." I turned to face him and smiled when I saw he was awake. "I need you too oppa. Please take care us I want to be a family." He gave me a quick peck and we both drifted off to sleep tangled in each others arms.