stars don't shine

depression

River dropped me off at my room tonight after dinner, it's the most i've ever eaten, i've never felt so sick.
i stuck my fingers down my throat, desperate to get everything out. little by little, everything started coming out.
even after everything was out, and i had no more stomach bile left to puke up, i was still going. i desperately wanted to stop, but i couldn't.
everything went black.

"shhh" i heard someone, a familiar someone. i felt a hand on top of my head playing with my hair, brushing their fingers through my hair.
"it's okay, it's alright. i know you're sorry." it was, Wil?
"wil?" i opened my eyes.
"it's okay i'm here." he said.
"what? where's River?" i asked.
just then, the door opened and i saw River with a bright red nose and puffy eyes.
"i'm here, honey. i'm here." he said, handing me a glass of water. he traded places with Wil, and kissed my forehead.
"are you okay?" he asked.
i nodded my head, and i took a sip of my water.
"what happened?" i asked.
River took a deep breath, "after i dropped you off here, after we ate, you threw up. a lot. it went on forever, i heard a loud noise while i was in my room and i checked in on you. you were passed out on the floor in a pile of your puke. i washed your hair and made Wil watch you while i got you some water." he said.
a tear dropped down my cheek, he pulled us both under the covers and he held me close. Wil shut the door and slept on my couch.

Rivers POV

i got up and went to my room to shower, as Wil did the same. we made sure not to wake Ariadne.
i headed back into her room and shook her gently,
"it's time to wake up sweetheart." i said. she grumbled and rolled over.
"Ariadne come on, please?" i begged.
she curled up in the blankets even more.
"honey? what's the matter?" i tried again.
i turned the light on, "turn it off" she hissed in a low mumble.
i've never seen her act like this before, i don't understand.
i went acrossed the street and ordered her a light breakfast, and brought it back to her.
"i know you don't want to eat, but i brought you some food hunbun." i said.
"just put it on the table." she said, another low mumble.
it was obvious she wasn't going to move anytime soon, so i crawled in bed next to her and pulled her close to me. she slept the day away.
i woke her up around 10:00,
"you have to shower." i said.
she mumbled a small "no".
"come on, up ya go." i said as i carried her into the bathroom.
"lift your arms." i said.
she lifted her arms and i lifted her t-shirt above her head.
i pulled at her underwear and looked at her with a questioning look. she nodded her head, so i pulled them off.
she stepped in the warm bath water and sat down.
she had dark circles under her eyes, and a deep frown where her bright smile usually is.
i poured water gently over her head and began to wash her hair. i let her wash her body as i grabbed a towel for her. we drained the tub, and she wrapped herself in her towel.
i grabbed her a new pair of underwear, and i gave her one of my shirts.
i slid her underwear on, and had her lift her arms and put the shirt over her head.
"would you like to walk to the bed?" i asked.
she put her arms out towards me to pick her up.
i picked her up and she wrapped her legs around me.
"do you want dinner?" i asked. she shook her head no and asked me to grab her a water bottle.
she drank her water and went back to sleep, i wonder what's got her down.