stars don't shine

day out

Ariadnes POV

i woke up this morning in our new house, and something inside of me felt funny. the good find of funny.
i looked over at River and kissed his forehead and headed into the shower. i put on an outfit and went out to run errands and grab stuff for the house.

Rivers POV

"stop, River! it's over!" Ariadne shouted, as she and Wil slammed the door, intertwining their fingers as they left.
my stomach felt like it was going to fall out of my butt, i couldn't breathe, i couldn't move.
i feel like everything i've come to know has been ripped away from me, and ripped out of me faster than i could imagine.
i never saw it coming.
this is a sadness strong enough to ache; shake, i shook like an earthquake. my ribs splintered; split open my chest.
the only person i have ever loved is gone, and out with my best friend, doing the things we used to do.
i went into her side of the closet and grabbed her shirts, i fell onto the ground and sobbed.
i've always tried to picture a world without us, but it was never something i ever thought would become reality.

i shot up, sweating, crying.
i felt her side of the bed, nothing. the blankets were perfectly made, as if no one had been there.
my heart started racing, "Ariadne?" i called out.
there was nothing, the only sound i could hear was my own heart beat, and the only thing i could feel was a lump in my throat.
i searched the house top and bottom, every inch, every corner.
i had no idea where she was, and i felt like i was losing my mind.

Ariadnes POV

after a few hours of gathering things for the house, i walked through the door. "honey?" i called out, and there was no answer.
"river?" i called again.
nothing.
i set everything down and went up the stairs, he was not in bed. i opened the closet, and there he was. he was on the ground, with a bottle of alcohol, with my his face buried in my shirt.
i shook him, but he didn't wake up.
i took the bottle downstairs and moved my shirts,
i carries him into bed, and tucked him under the covers. i sat next to him, and held him.
i felt like i was holding the most valuable, precious thing to ever be on planet earth.
i can't believe i allowed myself to love one human being so much, that without him, i feel like nothing.

it was around 4 in the afternoon when rivers eyes flickered open, and realized where he was.
"Ari?" he asked.
"i'm here, love." i replied, as i squeezed his hand.
"i thought you were gone," he started,
"i woke up, and you weren't here." he cried.
"River, i am not going anywhere. i was out shopping for the house. i will leave a note next time."
i kissed his forehead, and went downstairs and started dinner.
my poor riv has had a long day.