No Matter What

Chapter 8

I didn't know what to do. I was on the verge of losing the guy I had always wanted. It didn't help that Greyson Michael Chance showed at least some, or maybe a lot, of interest in me.

I couldn't stop crying. The tears kept flowing. Nothing helped. Chris was ignoring me. I was ignoring Greyson. Zack was at my house everyday comforting me. It still didn't help. Greyson, well, I could tell he was wondering what had happened. Chris? He didn't even CARE.

I never knew I would end up torn like this. Blasting music didn't help either.

'I'm all out of faith

This is how I feel

I'm cold and I'm ashamed

Lying broken on the floor

You're a little late

I'm already torn

Torn..'

I can't do it. I can't do this anymore. What happened to my life? I thought I would love Chris forever. I thought I didn't need anyone else in my life. I thought my life would be complete.

I am such a fool. The cool and confident Eveyn Marie Reyes was actually like THIS inside?! No, this had to end. I had to stop it.

I logged on to twitter. The first thing I felt I should do is to check on Greyson. With trembling hands, I typed in his username.

Wow. His tweets were deep. Deeper, and more personal; I felt, than last time.

'Can't you tell me what I did?'

'Was it all me?'

'I love you, you should know that.'

'It only breaks my heart to see you going through this.'

Gawd. I sighed. I clicked on my mentions. Wait. My eyes widened. I sat up straight.

"@greysoniloveyou: @omgcitseve Why'd you have to make Greyson like that?!"

"@asdfghjklgrey: @omgcitseve OMG I HATE YOU!!!"

"@greygreyismine: @omgcitseve Bitch, Greyson's OURS!!'

"@helloooogrey: @omgcitseve what the fk does Greyson even see in u? :/"

"@greysonsours4eva: @omgcitseve What have you done to our GREYGREY!!!"

Wait.. What the fk? How'd they even know what my twitter username was? And how'd they even know the tweets was about me or that Greyson liked me?!

Another tweet on my timeline. It was a retweet of a tweet sent last night. From a very very familiar username.

"@chrisbornes: Greyson's been tweeting about @omgcitseve lately, enchancers I'm not even joking I know this"

WHAT. THE. HOLY. SHIZZ.

Now I knew. Now I knew what a douchebag Chris was. Now I knew what I had actually been having a crush on all these years. Now I knew, what you desire won't always be what you expected once you've got it.

I feel sorry. Sorry that I ever felt sad, angry, hopeless, dejected, broken for him. He wasn't worth it. I knew what I actually wanted right now. I smiled. For the first time in a long while. Yeah, I was back, and it felt good.

'@omgcitseve: @greysonchance Don't worry, I'm alright, I love you babe xoxo'

That'll show them.

I never thought the family I had been in and possibly was still in would be like that. I mean, seriously? Some Enchancers need to learn. I rolled my eyes. Since young, I'd never been affected by hate.

'Shoot me down, but I won't fall, I am titanium.' I said.

Yeah, I'm acting like a bitch. I, Eveyn Marie Reyes, am a bitch and I'm proud of this bitch whom I am.