Hold On // Yoonmin

Chapter 10

-yoongi

I reached out to him but he continued to move back. "Jimin! It's not what you think. Please let me explain." He moved further away and continued to let out sobs. "N-no, I thought I could finally trust someone, but you're just like the rest!" I don't know what came over me, but I put my arms on either side of him.

"Damit Jimin! Listen to me!" He looked shocked at me and stayed silent. I brought him inside and forced him to sit down. I sat next to him and took his hand in mine. "Jimin, I would never do that to you. She came onto me and I didn't know what to do for the first few seconds, but I promise you that I would never betray you."

He didn't say anything. I was too scared to look at him not wanting to see him broken. He intertwined our fingers and gave me a little squeeze. "Okay, I believe you." I gave him a big smile and kissed him on his cheek. I froze up not knowing why I had done that. Jimin had slowly become red and I could feel my ears burning hot. "I um sorry, I got too excited and I just did that um sorry." He looked at his hands,"It's okay, don't worry."

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A month had flied by and slowly my relationship between Jimin and I grew. I was slowly falling and I'm still not sure if I'm happy or scared. I walked out of my bathroom to hear some knocking on the door. I went to open it and found a teary Jimin. "What's wrong? Are you okay?"

He hugged me and pushed me inside. He said something, but it all came out as gibberish. "Jimin, tell me if you'r okay?" He held me tightly before moving to look at me. "I'm not okay. I'm having one of those days again." I instantly knew what he was talking about and pulled him onto the couch with me. He slowly closed his eyes as I played with his hair.

Without me thinking, I was quietly humming to a melody making him relax even further. "Jimin, I don't know how it feels to be how you are, but I'm happy that I meet you." He took a deep breath in before sitting up right and turned to where his back was on my chest. He pulled my hand closer to his chest as he traced over my veins.

"I'm happy that you don't know how I feel. It is something beautifully painful. Seems like you're stuck in this cycle. You just want it all to stop and when you try to get help, all they do is judge you. People think it's easy to be happy. But to someone like me, it's hard because happiness is something that we haven't felt in a really long time." His words continued to repeat over and over in my head.

I placed my head down on his shoulder. I turned around to face him and kissed his cheek that was slowly turning pink. "Park Jimin, I promise to you that you will feel happiness. It may take some time to get there, but I'm willing to show you with time."

Rest and eat well to stay healthy ~ I r I s