Skai's New Life (COMPLETED)

Chapter 15

Chapter 15:

            I ask to see Devin first because he’s the one I care about the most. The doctor come out of his office and pulls me to the side. “You must be Skai.” He said. “How’d you know?” I asked confused. “Devin said you’d be here. He couldn’t wait to see you.” I smile at the thought that he knew me so well. I don’t get why he would treat me so bad if he wanted to see me. “Can I see him?” Maybe we could sort things out. I still love him even though he hurt me. Maybe I can forgive him. The doctor’s facial expression changed to sadness. “I am so sorry, Skai.” He says. What is he sorry for? “When I said he couldn’t wait to see you…I meant that he…” I know what he’s getting at. He can’t possibly be saying that he died. “What? No, he didn’t…” tears began to fall down my face like never before. “I am terribly sorry for your lost.” The doctor says. My heart shatters and my knees weaken. I fall to the floor and cry harder. I begin choking on my tears but I can’t stop crying. Here I was ready to forgive him for betraying me and now he’s gone. “No!”  I cried harder. He tries to get me off the floor but my knees are too weak to stand.

“He wrote you a letter before he passed. He spent hours trying to write it because of his bad condition. He really wants you to read it.” The doctor says handing me a piece of paper. I wipe my tears into my white t-shirt and open the letter.

Hey, Skai. I know you probably hate me right now and I understand. I want you to know that I love you more than anyone right now. I know I hurt you so bad and I am truly sorry. I only wanted to pay you back for hurting me by breaking up with me. It hurt me worse than I thought it would. Sindy has absolutely nothing on you. Neither does Staci, may she rest in peace though. I love you Skai Janette Jones and I wish I showed you that before now. I came over to apologize for what I did. I joined out of the hate club when I came to my senses. I am truly sorry for all the pain I have caused you. I really am. I wish it didn’t take me getting into this bad accident to finally realize how stupid I was and how much I really loved you. I know I probably won’t be here to give you this letter but it means everything to me if you could read this. I love you so much and I pray that your life gets better without me and the rest of us who treated you badly. Live in peace while I rest in it. Love, Devin aka your noodle head. : )

            I cry tears of joy and sadness. It hurts so bad that he’s gone now. Why did he put me through all of this? Why did he do this to me? Why Devin? I cry even more and wipe my tears even more. My heart really hurts. I finally look up and see that the doctor had gone. I get the strength to stand up. I look around to find out who else had gotten hurt or died. I know that Staci did because of this letter. Even though she made my month here a living hell, it was still sad that she died. I walk down the white halls and see Anthony’s name on the outside of the door. I open the door and walk in. “Anthony?” I whisper. “Skai, is that you?” he asks. His voice sounds raspy. “Yea.” I smile a little. “Thank God you’re here. I wanted to see you before…” “Don’t say that. You’re gonna be fine.” I stop him. He can’t die too. I wouldn’t know what to do with myself if he did die as well. I hold his hand and smile. The Anthony I met a month ago was back, not the liar I met a few days ago.

            We talked for about 20 minutes about random stuff before a nurse came in. I was told that I had to leave because he needed surgery. I left the room feeling hopeless. “Keep showing everyone that beautiful smile you won me over with.” Anthony told me while they moved him from that room to the hall. I watched them roll him down the hall and around the corner. At that moment, I felt that my heart was yet again pulled on. “Two people that I cared about saw the inside of this hospital because of me.” I kept telling myself. This is my fault somehow. If it wasn’t for me putting Anthony on blast, he wouldn’t have been going to surgery. If it wasn’t for me breaking up with Devin so fast, he wouldn’t have died. I slid my back down the white wall crying hopelessly. Doctors and nurses walk by me giving apologetic looks. Nothing can keep me from crying right now. Not even me choking on my tears. How did my life turn so bad like this? JOE! If my mom never met that ass of a man, we wouldn’t have been in this hell hole of a place. It’s not my fault, it’s his. He’s the one who started this chain reaction of BS.  I feel myself getting angry all over again. There’s only one thing on my mind right now and that’s getting rid of Joe.

            I stand up and look at the letter Devin wrote me one last time. I folded it back up and put it in my back pocket. I walk through the white halls to leave the hospital. “Are you ok, ma’am?” one nurse asks me. I know I look furious right now and they’re probably scared that I’m about to do something crazy. Well they should be because I just might. I walk past them all and leave. I have to ride the creepy bus home but right now I don’t even care. I have some serious planning to do. Joe thinks he can just ruin all our lives and then single each and every one of us out. Tf is his problem? It’s not over Joe. I can feel my crazy coming back and this is the one time I don’t even care. I have had it.

            I walk through the front door and rush up the stairs to my room. “What to do, Skai? What to do?” I ask myself. I pace back and forth holding my head I hold my face in my hands and I let out a loud scream and fall to the floor. I sit on the floor for what seems like 20 minutes. I open my eyes and see my closet door. I wipe away my tears of anger. At this moment, I remember the room in my closet. I stand up and get my laptop off of my computer desk. I grab a pen and pencil. I walk to my closet and I leave my closet light off. I walk to the little door behind my jeans. I turn on the light and walk in. I close the door behind me. I walk over to the little desk and place my laptop on it. No one knows about this room so it’ll be the perfect place to plan.

CRAZY THOUGHTS:

It seems a bit over board to be this mad at someone but it’s not. Think about it; he’s caused this family so much pain in a matter of 2 months. This is ridiculous. I was never best friends with my mom but seeing her get disrespected by someone she loved hurt me. I felt her pain. I think about all the times I have disrespected her and made her yell and cry. It hurt so much seeing her get treated that way. He said something bad about our whole family and that’s just to our faces. I wonder what he says to his friends. Joe Henderson has to pay for this. He has to. I’m already crazy so actually getting rid of him won’t be out of the necessary for me. It’s just crazy how I was good for all these years when mom stopped dating and was just a mom. The second Joe walked into the picture, my craziness came back. That’s like the 20th reason I have against him. Joe Henderson has to pay. He has to.