I hate making mistakes
Because it means that I'm flawed
Because it shows that I'm vulnerable
I hate being flawed
I hate every mistake I make
They are haunting me in my dreams
I hate being seen vulnerable
I hate seeing myself vulnerable
Because I'm the only one who noticed
I'm the only one who cares
And I hate it
I don't want to be vulnerable
But I am
And I hate myself for making it obvious
As long as no one notices
As long as no one cares
I can pretend that I'm not
But someone noticed
Someone cared
And this someone is me
And I'm the only one
And it's killing me alive
Why can't you see?
Why can't you see me?
Why can't you see my mistakes?
Why can't you see that I am not flawless?
Why can't you just ignore my mistakes
The same way you always do
With everyone's mistakes
But I'm not everyone
And when I do mistakes
You all act surprised
It is surprising
Isn't it?
That I make mistakes
It isn't a bad thing to be surprised
Is it?
It wouldn't hurt me
Would it?
I'm strong
Aren't I?
I'm confident
Aren't I?
Why would it hurt me when I make a mistake?
Why would your reactions hurt me?
It's bad manners when you point out someone who makes many mistakes
But it can't be bad to point out someone who doesn't
Can it?
You are so naiv
But that wouldn't hurt anyone
Would it?
Go on
Continue to live in you tiny little bubble
It's funny
Isn't it?
How easy it is to fool you all
What do I mean with that?
Oh, nothing
I'm fine
And now go back to your comfort zone
To your tiny little bubble
I will just sit here
Watching you
It's funny
Isn't it?
How easy it is to manipulate you
I like this thought
I could tell you
And you would be shocked
I could give you little hints
And you would be worried
Or
I could smile
And you wouldn't notice anything
That's funny
Isn't it?
You can fight wars in your head
But if you stay silent
No one would ever notice
Life is peaceful
As long as you stay silent
But this peace is fragile
An illusion
Only a few words
And it will be gone forever
That's funny
Isn't it?
Oh
Did I scare you?
I'm sorry about that
Just forget it
I can comfort you, if you want
Let's forget about what I said
Let's pretend that everything is fine
It is fine
Right?
There's nothing to be sad about
Right?
We could go on
Or go out
Do something
Have fun
Yeah
I think we should do that
Have a wonderful day, wherever and whoever you are
Don't forget to smile
And don't forget that there are people who care about you
I care
So please
Smile
And not just because I told you
Smile because you mean it
I know
It can be hard
But I'm here for you
Don't forget that
Life is funny
Isn't it?
We are all just a blink of eye
Compared with the universe
But we take things so serious
That's funny
Isn't it?
