And I'm catching myself again
I'm returning to those paths of thoughts
I thought my mind wouldn't wander anymore
I thought I have turned my back to them
But now I'm lost again
And I'm catching myself again
I'm building these walls
Made of doubts I thought I got rid of
I thought I don't need them anymore
But now I'm trapped again
I really thought I'm better
That I would trust you
That I would trust myself
Too be enough
I'm so sorry
I'm not
I'm just not enough
And not confident enough too let you see that
I'm lying again
I promised myself that I wouldn't do that anymore
But I realised
That promises
Aren't trustworthy
When they're made by me
Cause I build walls out of lies to hide behind them
And I trap myself in a prison made of the sweetest lies
And with a smile I say that I'm fine
While I'm dying inside
But no one wants to know that
When I'm sitting in my castle built of lies
And I'm telling the world that I'm better
Because what everyone thinks must be true
Tell me I'm fine
And I'm lying to you
Because I have to
Tell me I'm fine
I can't tell you the truth
I'm not allowed to
Tell me I'm fine
My mind is going nuts again
And I'm lying to everyone
And myself
Until I believe them
Tell me I'm fine
I became addicted to them
Tell me I'm fine
But they're all I have
Tell me I'm fine
Sweet lies
Oh how much do I wish they were true
I'm sorry
