And I'm catching myself again
I'm returning to those paths of thoughts
I thought my mind wouldn't wander anymore
I thought I have turned my back to them
But now I'm lost againAnd I'm catching myself again
I'm building these walls
Made of doubts I thought I got rid of
I thought I don't need them anymore
But now I'm trapped againI really thought I'm better
That I would trust you
That I would trust myself
Too be enoughI'm so sorry
I'm notI'm just not enough
And not confident enough too let you see thatI'm lying again
I promised myself that I wouldn't do that anymoreBut I realised
That promises
Aren't trustworthy
When they're made by meCause I build walls out of lies to hide behind them
And I trap myself in a prison made of the sweetest liesAnd with a smile I say that I'm fine
While I'm dying inside
But no one wants to know that
When I'm sitting in my castle built of liesAnd I'm telling the world that I'm better
Because what everyone thinks must be trueTell me I'm fine
And I'm lying to you
Because I have toTell me I'm fine
I can't tell you the truth
I'm not allowed toTell me I'm fine
My mind is going nuts again
And I'm lying to everyone
And myselfUntil I believe them
Tell me I'm fineI became addicted to them
Tell me I'm fineBut they're all I have
Tell me I'm fineSweet lies
Oh how much do I wish they were trueI'm sorry