And here we are again
You are angry
You are upset
And it's my fault
It always is
And yes, you are right
But you aren't
In fact
You are so wrong
At the same time
I know
You are worried
I know
You aren't perfect
I know
I should be forgiving
But can't I ask for the same?
Can't I ask you a little bit understanding
A little bit calmness
Wake up lady
This isn't all about you
I get it
You think I'm a child
Maybe a rebellious teenager
But I have to deal with life as well
And when I don't eat
It's not to insult you
And when my brain is telling me not to eat
It's not to rebell against something you have done or said
I'm already recovering
And I'm doing it on my own
Because I don't want you or anybody else to worry about me
But when you are mad at me for eating slowly
When you yell at me for no reason
When you are saying you don't want to talk about my eating behaviour every day
When you say you don't want to take me to a doctor
When you say you don't want to impute an illness to me I don't have
Then, PLEASE, leave me alone
I don't want to fight with you
I'm tired of it
But when you're saying these things
I want to scream at you
I want to tell you how ignorant you are
But I don't
Because I don't want you to worry about me
Because I want to fight this alone
But please
Please, mom
Please try to understand me
Please don't be mad at me
Please
Leave me alone
It's for the best
I'm sorry
