really short chapter just because I need mortise to think but don't want to leave y'all hanging any longer than I already have.
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(2 years later)
I sat in the bathtub staring straight ahead. My eyes burn but I force myself not to blink. If I blink, I could change my mind. I turn the blade around in my hand, contemplating. Although I've already made up my mind. I think of every mean and degrading comment said to me over the past two years. The first time I made an appearance on television with my mom. My first time being seen by millions, BILLIONS, of people.
My twitter feed lit up. Not in a positive way.
'who is this wannabe? check the mirror much?'
'her hair is ugly. get off the screen.'
'Lana's so beautiful. How did this alien looking...THING... come from that?'
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. A tear fell down my cheek as I made the decision over and over in my head.
do it. do it. I'm gonna do it.
"Ophelia! I'm home!" My eyes shoot open as I hear my mothers voice downstairs. I jump up and ignore my dripping wet clothes. I shove the blade in my pocket and step out of the tub just as I see the doorknob jiggle a bit.
"I just got out of the shower." I say, annoyed, so she won't suspect anything.
"Okay, love, just come downstairs when you're ready. I have a surprise." She says, excitedly.
"I can't wait." I say, looking down at my drenched clothes.
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"We're going where?" I ask as my mom holds up two plane tickets.
"Barcelona." She smiles, pulling me in for a hug. She strokes my recently cut hair and I hold her tight. I miss her. She's always working.
"I'm excited. We'll actually get to spend some time together." I smile at her.
"Of course. When I'm not performing." She turns to grab her water bottle off the counter. My smile drops.
"I thought this was a vacation." My eyes start to water but I blink the tears away.
"It is. But I thought that if I'm going to be there I might as well perform a few nights just cause I love my fans."
"What about your daughter?" I say as I turn and stomp off to my room.
