How to Save a Heart (Saving Destiny #1)

15. "But rejoices with the truth."

Chapter 15

"But rejoices with the truth."

-----

May mga bagay talaga na mahirap intindihin, pero kailangan mong maunawaan. At may mga panahon na kailangan mong masaktan, para matuto ka sa mga nangyari at maging masaya sa hinaharap. Thinking about what happened earlier, I felt as if a huge rock was lifted off of me. My questions have finally been answered. 

"I'm sorry, anak. I'm sorry." my real mom apologized; tears were running down her face. I bit my lower lip, trying not to let out a whimper. Masakit malaman ang totoo, but I guess, I need to face the truth sooner. Ayoko rin namang umalis sa mundong ito na may galit sa kanila. Even if I only have almost a month left, I want to heal. I want to forgive them. At ngayon nga, pinili kong makinig sa kanya, hoping na masagot niya ang mga tanong kong ilang taong walang kasagutan. Si mommy, or Tita Dianne, was nowhere to be found and my real mom, Darleene Salvatore-Dychingco, took that opportunity to explain things to me.

"Hindi ko ginustong mahiwalay sa'yo anak, pero kinakailangan. Para gumaling ka." she continued. She took my hands and held on, her grip tight. I swallowed the lump forming in my throat and looked away from her, but I didn't pull my hands away.

"David and I...we met in the States when I was in college. Doon ako nag-OJT and it so happened na siya ang naging supervisor ko." she instantly smiled at the mention of my dad, David Robertson.

"Bago lang siya sa company noon, kaya hindi nagkakalayo ang mga edad namin. I remember, we used to fight so much dahil sa konting misunderstandings. Until one day, we just...fell. We fell for each other."  she sighed and I finally turned to look at her again. Pinunasan niya muna ang mga luha niya bago ako nginitian ng tipid. Hinawakan niya ulit ang kamay ko at saka nagpatuloy.

"Nang matapos na ako sa OJT ko, sinamahan niya akong bumalik dito sa Pilipinas. Ipinakilala ko siya sa mga kaibigan ko at kay Dianne. Si Dianne na lang ang natitira kong pamilya dahil naghiwalay ang mga magulang namin. Ang lola mo ay nasa Ireland while ang lolo mo ay nasa States. Dianne approved of us, told me how lucky I was to find David, not knowing that she's already crushing on him secretly. Nagtagal kami ng ilang taon. Pabalik-balik siya dito kapag may oras. Our relationship would have been so perfect, if only Dianne...if only Dianne didn't..." she trailed off. The glint on her eyes told me that she wasn't mad or infuriated with her sister. But she was sad because that incident between them tore them apart.

"She claimed na buntis daw siya, at si David ang ama. I demanded your Dad about the truth, and he told he wasn't sure if he's the father or not. Nalasing daw sila pareho, and they ended up naked on his bed. Since then, tuluyan nang nagkalamat ang relasyon namin. I couldn't trust him anymore, and since Dianne was claiming that she's pregnant with his child, I decided to let him go. And I left. Nagtago ako sa probinsya till I found out that I was also pregnant. At ikaw ang ipinagdadalang-tao ko, Destiny." she paused, a genuine smile was lingering on her lips.

"I intended to keep you. Mamuhay tayo na tayong dalawa lang. Pero nang ipanganak kita, may komplikasyon pala ang puso mo. And since nasa probinsya tayo, wala akong matinong trabaho. I wanted to ask for help pero ayoko naman malaman ng parents namin ang sitwasyon namin ni Dianne. So I stayed slient and I decided to go back to Manila, to ask your Dad na tulungan ka.

But I find out na nagpakasal na sila. I know that I was also to blame because I remember telling him to marry Dianne before. Ayoko kasing matulad ang magiging anak niya sa amin na hindi buo ang pamilya. Pero akala ko matagal ko na siyang nakalimutan, hindi pa pala. Masakit pa rin pala. Lalo na kung makita mong ang taong nagmahal sa'yo noon ay nasa piling na ng iba. And it was then that I really regretted leaving. I should have given him a chance to fix us, but I chose to push him away. I chose to save my pride instead of fighting for him, for us.