all these years- [shawmila]

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|Camila|

I slowly rubbed my eyes as I woke up from a long sleep. I opened my eyes and saw that I was nuzzled against shawns exposed chest.

After last night, I decided to let Shawn stay over. Which led to something else, as you can see.

I guess we were both put into a lot of pressure lately that we needed to release some stress, which we obviously did if you know what I mean.

I sat up straight and grabbed a piece of my white sheets and covered my body. Shawn  then opened his eyes and started rubbing them.

"Good morning sunshine" Shawn said and sat up before kissing my cheek. I looked at him and he looks absolutely gorgeous when he wakes up.

"Good morning, want me to make you breakfast?" I questioned and Shawns eyes widened before he quickly nodded, i'm guessing that's a yes.

"Okay well, cover your eyes while I change" I told Shawn.

"Oh like I haven't seen any of that before" Shawn smirked which caused me to playfully smack him.

I wouldn't say Shawn and I are friends with benefits, but we obviously do stuff. We're best friends but nothing more. We mess around sometimes, but we never really talk about it. I guess you can say we just don't catch feelings for each other.

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"That was amazing, I have to go to my parents house and check up on them. I'll call you later?" Shawn said, and I nodded my head.

My heart broke with the mention of his parents. It reminded me of how broken I was on the inside. I had no one but myself.I don't have a father, I don't have a mother and I definitely don't have anyone else. It was just me. I felt so empty and fragile.

Shawn then gave me a tight hug before putting on his shoes and leaving my apartment. I sighed before walking to the living room and sitting down on the couch. I was gathering all my thoughts when Sabrina came by me and sat down next to me.

"You good?" She questioned and I peered my head up, so now I was looking at her face.

"Honestly, no" I chuckled but Sabrina just side hugged me.

"I know it's tough now, but eventually things will get better" she said trying to comfort me, but she was wrong. She has no idea how I feel and what I'm going through

"Thanks" I mumbled but loud enough for her to hear.

"So you and Shawn, again?" Sabrina chucked and I just glared at her.

"What? He just stayed the night" I shrugged and she shakes her head.

"That's not what I was hearing from your room last night" Sabrina teased and I playfully pushed her away.

"Shut up" I mumbled and felt my cheeks super red.

"What's with you two?" Sabrina added.

"Nothing? We're just friends" I shrugged.

"You say that all the time" Sabrina argued back.

"Well we are? We've been best friends since birth. I'm pretty sure we're nothing but that" I strictly told her and she just rolled her eyes.

"You always do this" she whined and I furrowed my eyebrows.

"What exactly do you mean by that?"
I questioned.