all these years- [shawmila]

three

|Camila|

Today I was off from work, and I started thinking a lot. I was thinking about everything that has happened these few months. I thought about work. Why am I still working? I honestly don't like that job, I'm just working to spare some time and save a few bucks. Which I don't technically have to since I kept my mom and fathers money after they passed away.

If I spent the money they left for me, I wouldn't feel right about it. It's not my money to spend , Yeah they left it for me, but I just doesn't feel right.

I've also been thinking about my house. The house that I stayed with as well, the only thing I have besides the money, which I don't plan on using.

I decided to have the courage and go back to my house. My house that I've lived in my whole life. It's gonna be hard leaving Sabrina here alone, but I talked to her and told her to visit whenever she wants.

I sighed and walked into the front door of shawn's house. I knocked on the door and within a few moments, shawn opened the door and smiled at me.

"Hey What brings you here? I was literally about to call you, I have some exciting news!!" He said and I smiled.

"I just wanted to talk to you, can I come in?" I questioned and shawn's eyes widened and he nodded his head.

"Of course" he said and opened the door for me, I walked in and walked to his living room and sat on his couch.

I had no idea why I was here. I just wanted to talk to someone about me moving into my old house.

"So what do you wanna talk about?" Shawn questioned and sat down next to me.

"Wait, what were you gonna tell me?" I chuckled and shawn's face lit up like a Christmas tree.

"Oh yeah!! Remember yesterday when I told you that guy wanted to give me a record deal? Well you told me to call him, and I did!!! And now I have a record deal with him!!!" Shawn said and my eyes widened.

"Holy fuck shawn!!! This is great, I'm so happy for you!!" I said and gave him a tight hug.

"Thank you!!!" Shawn said and pulled away, "I start writing in the studio in two days. I have to fly to New York and then from there who knows what will happen" shawn said with excitement.

Two days? He's leaving in two days? I would normally be happy and excited for him, but apart of me didn't want him to leave this soon.

"Wow, that's great shawn!!" I cheered, even if I was sad about him leaving so soon I was still so proud of him.

"Thank you!! But what we're you gonna tell me again?" Shawn said changing the subject back to me.

"Um, I thought about what you said yesterday, about my house, I decided I should maybe move back in." I said and shawns face softened.

"I didn't suggest you'd rush into moving-"shawn started to speak but I interrupted him.

"No. You didn't rush me. I thought about it. I can't be living with Sabrina the rest of my life when I have my own house." I said and shawn nodded his head.

"When are you gonna move in?" Shawn questioned.

"Friday or Saturday." I said and shawn nodded his head.

"I leave Friday" shawn mumbled and I nodded my head.

"Gosh Shawn. Why do you have to go all the way to New York? That's far" I chuckled and shawn did the same.

"I have a few meetings there. They want to see my songs and they want to go over some stuff" shawn said and I nodded my head.

We stayed quiet for a bit, I wanted to say something but I had no idea what to say exactly. But that's when shawn started to speak.