all these years- [shawmila]

fourteen

|camila|

I bit my nails as I nervously walked around my room trying to process everything that had happened to me in the past few years.

Everything between Shawn and I had been crazy. He left me and got famous, and most importantly he never talked to me throughout the years. Then, out of no where he shows up and expects for everything to be completely fine? Then he has the audacity to KISS me and try to mess with my feelings. Also, he's been ignoring me ever since he kissed me. Not that I'm not used to him ignoring me, but seriously?

Call me crazy, but there's something completely wrong with shawn?

As I kept overthinking, There was a knock on the door. Shortly, the door opened and there stood my friend Sabrina.

"You're still not ready???!" She yelled as she walked towards my closet and started searching for an outfit.

"Sorry I lost track of time" I mumbled as I sat down on my bed and watched her freak out over what I was going to wear.

We were invited to a party shawn was throwing at his condo. I'm not really a fan of parties, but a lot of my friends are gonna be there as well and I wanna have a good time. I haven't really gone out lately, so this is good for me.

"You always do this"

"Do what??"

"Overthink every situation" she said as I sat up to give her my full attention.

"As if" I said in denial.

"Tell me what's going on. I know some shit is happening. You haven't talked to me since he's been back." She said as she grabbed a dress and placed it on my bed.

I grabbed the dress as I stood up and took off my clothes.

"Things are good" I lied as I continued to put on the dress.

"Why haven't you talked to me?" she questioned.

I tried to, but she was always busy or something.

"Sorry" I mumbled.

I turned around and held my hair up signaling that I needed her to zip up my dress for me. She immediately got the hint and zipped it up. She then grabbed a necklace from my vanity and put it on me.

I walked into my restroom and gave myself a quick look before approving.

She picked out a red dress that was spaghetti strapped, silky, and ended mid-thigh.

Not my kind of outfit I usually wear, but Sabrina knows how to dress.

"Are you gonna do your makeup? Or do you want me to do it?" She asked.

"No it's fine. I don't wanna wear makeup anyways" I shrugged.

She gasped and walked in front of me and gave me a "you're kidding" look.

"What?" I questioned as I walked into my closet and grabbed a pair of high heels to match my dress.

"Nothing, it's just that you never leave the house without makeup" She explained.

I rolled my eyes and I sat on my bed and put the heels on my feet.

I just wasn't in the mood of putting on makeup and actually making an effort on my appearance.

"Wow shawn has been here a few days and he's already changing you for the better"

"This has nothing to do with shawn. are you kidding me"