those boys - luke hemmings fanfiction

17

The boys are now coming back in half a week. Me and Calum have been have been skyping almost every day but everytime I just feel more and more guilty. I haven't seen Amelia since that day, but I feel sick everytime I think about that last conversation we had.

I know I have to tell him soon, the guilt is eating me away inside. Luke is adamant on not telling him, which is understandable seeing as they are with eachother 24/7 and he doesn't want to ruin their friendship.

"Luke it's better off him hearing it from me than from Amelia," I argue with him on the phone.

"Lily I am serious you can't say anything, or at least don't say it was me,"

"He is going to find out either way Luke, at least I can break it to him nicely,"

"I bet Amelia was bullshitting, I bet she is just trying to scare you,"

"Luke for god's sake she knows!"

"Alright calm down,"

"Don't tell me to calm down!"

"Somebody's on their period,"

"I'm not on my period! You know what Luke I can't be bothered with you anymore. Call me back once you get your head out of your ass,"

"Lily I'm sor-"

"Save it, I am going to call him now and tell him,"

"Lily!"

"We did something stupid and now we have to face the consequences,"

"Lily we are in the same band! Wait, y-you think it was stupid?"

I take a deep sigh.

"Yes, it was a spur of the moment mistake. Luke I think it's best we keep our distance, for Calum,"

There is silence on the other end of the line.

"Luke?"

"For Calum," He quietly says, before hanging up the phone.

I fall back on my pillow and scream into the pillow. Thank God nobody's home, they would think I was crazy.

With shaking hands I pick up my laptop and log into my Skype. I hover over Calum's contact for a moment, before video calling him. He picks up after the first few rings.

"Lily princess why are you still awake? I swear it is nearly midnight where you are! Don't you have school tomorrow?"

"Cal-"

"Lily it's fine go to sleep I don't mind, I get it's annoying me being on tour, I know, I feel terrible, I'm the worst boyfriend,"

"Calum n-"

"But I will be home soon and it will get back to normal and you can come to my house all the time, oh I forgot my grandma wants to meet yo-"

"Calum! Listen to me!"

He shuts his mouth, a little taken back by my outburst.

"S-sorry," He mutters.

I open my mouth to reply but my mouth dries up and the words don't come out. He is innocently staring at me with his eyes wide open, a sad but hopeful expression. I feel tears start to slowly fall down my cheeks but I don't feel the motivation to wipe them away.

"W-what's wrong? Why a-are you crying? Did I d-do something," Calum asks, stumbling along his words.

"N-no Cal I have done something awful,"

He gives me a funny look, and looks somewhat relived. "I'm sure we can fix it honey,"

"No Calum we can't" I quietly reply.

"You are worrying me now princess, what is it?"

"I-I slept with L-Luke the n-night before you left," I whisper, keeping my eyes on my lap. When I look up I see Calum's face has fallen and he has gone pale. He opens his mouth and tries to finds the right words.

"Did I do something wrong? Was I not good enough? Why Lily?"

"No Calum! I don't know why I did it, I-"

"You know what? Don't bother," he says, "don't ever talk to me again," and with a last look of disgust he disconnects the call.

I fall back on my bed, unable to stop the tears streaming down my face. I stay like that for an hour or two, when my phone goes off. I roll over to see it is Luke.

-Thanks Lily. Thanks a whole damn lot.

I also have a message from Ashton.

-Don't talk to any of us again. Unless it's Luke, I'm sure he would be happy to get in your pants again.

I throw my phone across the room and it hits a wall, cracking the screen. It was an old phone anyway.

I don't get any sleep that night, I lie awake with the curtains not drawn, watching the sky. I am dreading when the boys get back to Sydney, and I now have officially lost all my friends. That highlights that I am the bad person in this. Because nobody loses all their friends for no reason.

Giving up on sleeping, I get my laptop and log onto twitter. I hardly ever go on Twitter but I know the boys go on it a lot so it is a good way to see what they are thinking. None of them follow me as they have never mentioned it. After a while I find them and have a look through their tweets from the previous night.

@Luke5SOS: Be careful who you trust

@Luke5SOS: well this is great

@Ashton5SOS: Some 'bandmate'

@Ashton5SOS: There are so many fish in the sea mate, but every so often you come across a dogy one @Calum5SOS

@Michael5SOS: Some people make me sick

@Michael5SOS: People never fail to surprise me

@Michael5SOS: Two faced? More like 100 faced.

Calum hasn't been online all night. I look through Twitter and find a link to one of their performance that night. You can tell that there is tension, although they do their best to cover it up. They normally move around the stage and play next to eachother, but Michael and Calum don't go anywhere near Luke and just fool around with eachother, while Luke stays stationed where he is for the whole performance. Calum smiles but it is a sad smile, that doesn't reach eyes.

I have not only lost friends, I have broken up other friendships and a band. Good going Lily.

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