Even If I Die It's You || Taekook

My Blood, Sweat, and Tears

It had been 15 minutes now and Tae stared at the wall, the others trying to figure out what to do.

Tae stood up ignoring the calls of the others as ran out of the door. He ran out in the snow to the only place that he would find comfort. HIs nose started running and he started shivering, petal choking his throat and threatening him to stop but he kept running the cold wind whipping past him.

Tae slowed down to a steady walk trying to keep his frail body intact. He fell on his knees the snow melting and seeping into his jeans. He looked at the view from the top of the mountain.

It almost made his feel better, but i didn't.

"Stop being so beautiful," he muttered to the mountain's view.

Tae closed his eyes and lie on his back, breathing heavily as the cold took him in.

"Stop being so beautiful, Jungkook."

The snow fell on his face one by one and melting down his cheeks like tears, only they were real.

"Stop being so perfect."

Tae sighed and let himself have a good cry. He had to admit, sometimes the pain from outside felt so much more better than what he felt inside.

"Jungkook, why do you hurt me like this?" he asked. If he pretended that he was right there, everything would be alright, right ? "Jungkook-ah," he turned to his side and held the snow's hand. "Why do you break me so much?" He took a shaky breath in, "Why are you the only one who could save me? Jungkook !" He yelled through the echoing silence, for it to only respond to him with nothing.

Why did this winter bring such cold?

Tae coughed hard, his blood inking the white kissed snow.

Such endless pain?

He doubled back and stood up holding his stomach. He didn't want to die alone. He walked away from the beautiful view. It almost felt as if it was being ripped away from him.

He tried making his way down the mountain slipping every couple of steps. "Taehyung you are a fucking idiot," he chuckled through petals, his blood leaving a trail.

He felt all the warmth and strength go away quickly as he walked barefoot on the snow.

Tae wrapped his arms around himself as he coughed multiple petals, the beautiful flower in his heart seeming to start blooming.

Finally. I'm done with this, didn't you know.

"You really are such a fucking fool," he spat blood dripping down his chin. "Jungkook doesn't give two shits about this and you're still chasing him, you idiot. Idiot ."

Tae tumbled down the mountain and fell. "You aren't going to die alone, Taehyung , you aren't going to die alone," he pleaded.

Tae walked as fast as he could back to his dorm, "Oh, Jung- fucking -kook, I really love being a fool for you."

He coughed out petals violently not caring to cover it, not caring that people stared, not caring that he could be crashed by the cars beeping loudly at him.

"You aren't dying alone, Taehyung. I promise . Please. Hold one for a bit longer," Tae pleaded through his bloody coughs. " Please —"

Taehyung ran to the door of the dorm and violently coughed, his hands let go of the door knob, the energy drained out of him and fell against the door. "Taehyung," he groaned through the pain of the petals choking him. "You're going to die alone."