Even If I Die It's You || Taekook

Epilogue: Sick of Losing Soulmates

Author's Note:

so this is optional if u wanted to kno what happened to the others
i've had this written for a while but you know your lazy emo boi is uhh rlly lazy soo
here it is

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It was too late when Jungkook made it to the hospital. It was too late.

At first, Jungkook couldn't register what happened. Everyone was just broken around him. Everyone was crying.

Had he really just lost his soulmate?

The pain was different than when his parents died. It hurt more. It made him feel more empty than he was already feeling.

Was Tae really gone?

He stood at the see through glass of the hospital room as they pulled white sheets over Tae's face. He felt Jimin yelling at him, crying.

He saw Jin huddled into Namjoon's embrace, the both of them red with tears. He saw Hoseok falling to the floor, breaking down into a massive set of tears. He saw Yoongi in the corner of the room almost hiding, as he silently blamed himself for Tae's death.

Jungkook hated this dream. He hated it. He just wanted to wake up in his hyung's embrace. He just wanted to got to sleep in it, never wake up again.

The world is cruel.

Jimin eventually stopped yelling at Jungkook but started hugging him, crying into his arms.

Jungkook turned around and ran out of the hospital room. He had to find Taehyung. He had to.

Jungkook ran outside of the hospital, only to realize he didn't know where to look.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm so—"

"Jungkook."

Jungkook's eyes widened. He looked behind him and almost felt like dying as he saw Taehyung, covered in blood smiling, his hand held out.

"It's okay, Kookie. You're going to be alright."

Tae just looked at Jungkook for a while before he said, "Keep everyone near, Jungkook. Don't blame Yugyeom. It isn't his fault."

Jungkook looked up at Tae, thinking of something to say but all that came out was, "I'm sorry."

Tae shushed Jungkook.

"I love you, okay?"

Jungkook's throat became hoarse as he started crying hard, and Tae walked away, his back turned. It almost reminded him of himself.

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Yugyeom ran out side of the hospital and walked a couple of blocks looking for Jungkook. He found his on the floor looking straight, his face pale.

"Jungkook!"

Jungkook flinched. He turned to see Yugyeom crouching down next to him.

"Are you okay?"

Jungkook stared at Yugyeom for a bit, his head cocked.

Was it his fault or Yugyeom's fault Taehyung died?

Jungkook's eyes softened a bit and he hugged Yugyeom.

Yugyeom wrapped his arms around Jungkook pulling him closer.

"You're going to be alright."

But would he?

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One Month. It had been one month. A whole month. 31 days without Taehyung. He didn't make it to the next year. He was left back.

They spent their New Years mourning over Taehyung.

He missed Tae so much.

That was all he could do nowadays. He felt so useless. He should've been aware of Tae's condition before. Why didn't Tae even tell him? Why was he so blunt and oblivious all of the time!

He felt like the world was against him. He hadn't gotten any sleep at all since he passed. Whenever he tried sleeping he'd wake up in sweat and tears from a nightmare.

He was so sick and done with everything. Looking at himself in the mirror disgusted him too. He had hollowed cheeks now because of how much he threw up thinking about everything. He'd developed dark, heavy bags and his eyes always looked swollen. He didn't look like Jeon Jungkook anymore.

He hated this.

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Jin looked at Namjoon with a frown. "I don't like this."

The two of them sat in the living room looking at the door of Jungkook's bedroom, exchanging worried glances.

"You should go talk to him," Namjoon said.

"What do I say?"

"What the fuck Jin, you always know what to say. It'll come to you when you're there, just get your ass to him."

"Damn, is this the respect you give to your elder?"

"Oh, shut up!"

A loud thump came from Jungkook's room.

"Wow what the fuck is he doing in there?"

"He's just stressed out," Namjoon replied, shaking his head.

"I know. I just don't like seeing him like this. I haven't seen his darn face in so long. He doesn't come out of his own room, Namjoon!"

"I know. Just--go talk to him. He just needs someone right now and we aren't doing such a good job on helping him right now."

"Fine, you pig! If I make him feel even worse it's your fault!"

"That doesn't even make sense!" Namjoon whisper-yelled back at him.

"Shut it, I'm going in."

Jin softly knocked on the door, "Can I come in?"

A small, squeaky sound came from the room.

"I could've sworn he said please," Jin strained his ear.

"He sounds like a fucking mouse, what the shit do you know!"

"But--"

"Just go in, oh god."

Jin gave him a mean look and quickly softened his expression before he went in.

His eyes lay on Jungkook, laying face down on his pillow.

"Jungkook?" Jin sat down next to Jungkook and Jungkook automatically shifted his head from the pillow to Jin's lap and started crying. "Shh. It's alright, Kookie."

"Why did he have to die!"

"I know it's hard for you. It's hard for everyone. I can't imagine how you feel right now. I know he's gone and you won't see him ever again. But it's important to think about him with happiness. There were bad memories, but we also had a lot of good memories too. Neither of us are ready to move on right now, but when we do, let's remember him for who he was, Kim Taehyung, our best friend."

Jin gave Jungkook a tight squeeze. "You'll be alright, kid. And I like eating food with you. Get out of your room. Look at your skin!" Jin frowned and poked at Jungkook's nonexistent cheeks. "I swear to god, for the next year you won't be doing anything but eating. I miss your baby cheeks."

Jungkook nodded and sniffled back his tears.

"You haven't eaten dinner yet, come on. I made lamb skewers!"

Jin tried to pull Jungkook up but he stayed their hugging Jin. Jin smiled and stood up, Jungkook still holding on, so Jin dragged him out of his room and fed him.

The red hue his cheeks usually had had started to come back.

They were going to be okay.

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Author's Note:

aaa really
thank you so frucking much for reading this fic i really appreciate it so much :<
you guys are the best and i'm sorry i didn't post this earlier!
so this is the end
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