Love

Remembrance

Growing up I remember every single thing that happened to me. Now going back into time and my mind I remember being abused. Like never ever ever ever someone helping me. It doesn’t help at all! Or was it all a dream? Or was it not? See I always tell it my own, but I knew how far to go with myself it always took one soul to mess with me and it was over. I always took my past out on my future, and that was the most hated thing that I ever done, that’s exactly why I think all the people that I wrote about in this book they didn’t care about me at all well at least the ones I’ve heard about so far, I thought they didn’t care never would care. Now that I know that I can’t go on with carrying baggage from my pass is hell of a lot more than I thought it would be.
My life is going to be hell nothing but he’ll, at least that’s what I think all these problems going on in my head and all these problems going on in my future and all the problems that have gone on in my past is hell of a lot more than I think and thought that it would be. See you have friends that actually care about you and on the other hand you have bitches that don’t give a fuck about you hope you die the next day? Really! How dare them how dare them come to you with the shenanigans and not ask how do you feel and you always care for them see like I said before, that’s my problem I never worry about me I’m always too busy worrying about the next person, and their feelings, and their burdens I never can ever get to myself. Absolutely not saying that I do what I do for attention but I do what I do to let others know that life is not a game, life is something that people go through every single day handling things worse than what I did and how I’m handling them right now. See to be honest I love myself in every single thing that I believe in I love them I could the color of my skin. I love my sexuality I love my name I love me and all of my kindness and all of my grandness and I always thought that no one else could relate to me and relate to what I had to say, but the people who say they care actually care. I don’t think so I think it took advantage what I told them so they can use it as their own way to escape their problems. Really!!! I went through all this hell and you don’t think I’m going to go through anymore. All these boys that took advantage of me and you think they won’t pay. I don’t want them to pay but karma is the baddest bitch ever, and she do a hell of lot then you think.