Love

Death.Insecures.Jealously

So going back to my "boy problems". One of my biggest things on boys.... Was my insecure ways and jealous ways. One of my crushes I didnt mention was this boy name Cole Taylor. Cole was the bestfriend that I ever had. I started to catch strong feelings for him. At times I would try to push my self on him and he didnt mind, but i loved Cole. Cole would do anything that I asked. He was a kind swell young man and respectable. He cared about me big time andi was always there for him and he was always there for me. He knew I liked him and he didnt mind and he loved me just as much i loved him but probably not the same way...at least I thought. I would try to text Cole every day and he texted me as well. Y'all remember that how LaLa from the beginning in the first chapter...the one who took my first boy crush. How 'bout this bitch took Cole too. Now this bitch was getting out of motherfucking hand I thought. Now she already took my first boy crush...now bitch hold up. This bitch was always doing something to me from keeping me from the people I care about...BITCH. One day Cole and I were texting and we were having this great conversation, but he told me he would be back. That night he never texted me back I thought he went to sleep, but I woke up watching the news while it was saying *COLE TAYLOR DEAD MYRTLE BEACH* What the fuck I thought I was dreaming, but sadly I wasnt dreaming. He was gone and I thought it was because of me. I thought God took him away from me because something I did. I wanted him back so bad, but I knew and every body around me knew that I couldn't have him back, but I didnt won't that for nobody. Robert reminds me so much of Cole. No meter who much shit I talk about him I dont won't anything to happen to him. He is the best thing that I never had,but the way Cole told me he loved me and texted me every day and night the way Robert did. I have an confession. There is this girl name Kayla. She supposedly liked Robert but she kept playing with his heart and I didnt want Robert to be hurt from Kayla doing this to him because I care about. Why would he waste his time on that bitch and not me. I wanted him to know that I gave a fuck about him unlike she did. I can tell he didnt care about her as much as he thought he did, but Robert has this friend that's a guy named Jalen. Robert and Jalen are like "bestfriends" Jalen is always in Roberts ass and it never fails. Maybe I was ...well still is jealous of the relationship that these two have.