Love

Hearts never Combined

Robert Jacobs I have so much to say bout him. Now Robert was a real love and I don’t care what no one said. Let me tell you how this story went about. So one day we were in class and I song to the class and Robert recorded it and I asked him to send it to my phone. So, it didn’t send to my phone and so he had to send it to me on messenger. So it end up sending on messenger and when it did we started texting and he begin to gain my trust and I begin to start liking him.
Robert and I would text everyday no matter if he texted me first or I texted him first we texted every day and night, morning until night. What I liked about Robert was the fact that he wasn’t scared of a challenge and he is smart as hell and he was kind to me and never tried to down play me. One day Robert had told me about him wanted experience with a boy. I wanted to be his first for anything, hell I knew he was a virgin anyways.
I really cared about him and I did not want his sex. I hope he didn’t think that I did, because I really cared about him. I thought Robert loved me the same, but I was sadly mistaken. When I told Robert I liked him right then and there its like he didn’t give two fucks about me, but let me back track. When Robert knew I liked him I felt like he used me, he knew what I’ve been threw I told him every thing, what happen to me in the pass. He didn’t respect me at all and used me, well that’s how I felt. One day Robert and I were texting and his idea of us were to have sex. Robert wanted to so bad but I told him no but, I made an offer, and of course he excepted it. So eventually we did something and it was more then once. After we did it he played me and fucked me over, I felt so stupid and played like an Xbox 360. I asked myself “why would he do that with me and not want a relationship and knew I wanted a relationship with him.” He didn’t care about me I don’t think he care about me now. He barely text me and always have an excuse to not talk to me or talk to me, but going into 2018 I’m going to take no more shit, especially from him. I trusted him and all that stuff I told him and he betrayed me just imagine who did he tell. After we did that and I confess to myself that it was reality I hated him with all my heart, but eventually he apologized, but don’t think it was sincere at all. Like I said..I don’t think he care and never did, I just think I was experience for him. Every time I see him I refrain myself from punching him in his face. I love him but I really hated myself for fucking with this boy, but I hate that I love him because he has sweet love, but I have to come to reality to realize that this life wasn’t good for me. That love put me threw pain and so much trouble. Even though I care about Robert with all my hart and never going to stop caring its something in me looking for an apology for him taking advantage of me. He originally apologized for throwing me under the bus and telling his best friend what was going on between us, because when she found out all hell broke lose, but I’m not looking for an apology for that, I’m looking for an apology for him to come clean that he took advantage of the fact that I had so much love for him and he use me for an experience and he didn’t care about how I felt……… or did he. Well it wouldn’t matter at this time I hated him if he cared or not, but I still cared for him. Am I dumb for caring about him when I felt he didn’t a shit about me? Or is it just me………. I Want to get off his topic so, but I know I can’t get off him and I should’ve never started. Sometimes I feel that Robert don’t want to be called gay that’s why he has not stated that he was gay, but I personally think that he shouldn’t care what anyone think and he should be him self and create a relationship with him like I think he does.
Dose he care? I don’t think so but I do,and i cared what he think even though Robert is a bitch i love that bitch with all my heart well at least I thought because are heart couldn't combine. I contradict myself way to much, but well come back to this later but for now we’re moving. I’m  to switch story to story, so I might switch back to back, person to person.