I feel like I am stuck in the movie Groundhog Day. Maybe a laundry cycle of wash, rinse, and repeat. All I know is my appointment can't get here soon enough. I have been stuck in this wheelchair for four weeks and I get to go see how I am healing up today. I've been a good little girl abiding by all of the doctors rules in hopes that when the time comes he will release me from the confinement of this wheelchair. Hopefully since I haven't been on my leg at all I can skip the crutches and just go straight to walking. I know that wishful thinking and all but a girl can dream.
I can't complain though. Lexi and Noelle have been really awesome and have the patience of a saint. I hate having to depend on others but I really didn't have much choice that last few weeks. They have been taking turns so that I don't get overwhelmed with to many people hovering over me.
My mom has kept herself in a drunken stupor and hasnt left her room. The only time she appears, she acts all motherly and concerned but that only lasts about thirty seconds. I gotten pretty good at playing the avoidance game with her!
Brody has been my true lifesaver. He is here anytime I need him and lots of times when I don't. He has gotten me out of the house and taken me to our special place on many occasions. It's been nice being able to have small adventures even though I can't really get around much by myself. He's been really great and I shouldn't complain but its seems that since we had the accident we are just stuck. We haven't talked about what happened in the past. And we aren't moving forward. I am epically stuck in the friendzone. It's been seriously frustrating not knowing what he's thinking or what direction we are going. I'm too scared to say anything because I don't want to push the issue. The frustration keeps fizzling and at some point it is going to come to a boiling point. I really don't want to argue or snap at Brody but there is only so much 'not knowing' a girl can deal with.
Right now I am just trying to get ready to go. My appointment is in an hour and I'm just ready to get there and be out of this wheelchair.
"Brody, I can do it myself. It's just a jacket. My arms are not broke. That's my leg." I don't know why I put up such a fuss. He will just ignore me like he always does.
"I know you can do it yourself but I want to help. Please don't fight me on this." He stands there patiently waiting on me.
"Whatever. Once I'm out of this chair I will be doing it myself anyways. You won't always be able to come to the rescue." I snap.
"Yes, I can and I will. Lani, I want to be here for you. I'm not doing all of this because I have to or you need me too. I am here because I want to be."
"Really?" I snap again. I take a few deep breaths and close my eyes as tightly as I can.
"I know we haven't really had time to talk about what happened but I hoped that we were at a point that we can trust one another. I was hoping that you can see that I don't plan on abandoning you again."
"How am I supposed to know that? I am not a mindreader and you sure haven't taken the time to say anything about it." I take a deep breath trying to think of the right words to say. "Yes, you have been great the last month and I truly appreciate everything you have done for me. I do trust you to an extent but that trust can only go so far when a person is left in the dark. But I am tired Brody. I am tired and frustrated. I hate not knowing." I look up and see the pain in his eyes. I can see he wants to say something but he just holds it in.
"I am tired as well but I am here. Everyday, I am here Lani. For you. No one else. You!! I'm not going anywhere." Deep breathes, he breathes through his nose taking deep breaths.

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Repair the Broken
Teen FictionAlayna is shy and an introvert and calls this her abnormality. Alayna wants to overcome her abnormality buy completing things on her bucket list. She enlists the help of two best friends Lexi and Noelle. One of the things on her bucket list is to...