Don't Go {Kris FF}

one -struggle

Author: Take care of yourselves, chingus. Don't be depressed to much as they are now only 11. For me, Kris will always be an EXO member.

Let's just hope that he appears soon. I missed him so much.

xoxo

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c a r i s s a

Just when I heard the news of him missing and lost, my world sank down, leaving me squats of hell struggling to rise it back. But I couldn't.

I locked myself in my room, not wanting to do anything else rather than stay silent while AC is giving chills on my arms and legs.

I looked on nothing but the darkness that wrapped in my room. The darkness filled me, seeing the gray shadows that reflected the objects in my room.

"CARISSA!" My sister called my name through my door, "it's time to go now..."

I quickly wipped my tears off and replied, "coming Lacey. Give me 10 more minutes."

"Okay. Be fast and come down. Our cousins are waiting."

I could hear the sound of her heels away to the stairs. I started changing into an oversized yellow blouse that hangs on my shoulders and a not so short shorts that lies 3 inches above my knee. I covered my dark circles with concealer and got my sneakers slipped to my feet.

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We arrived at the bar,here together with my sister and my 3 other cousins. Since it was Deree's birthday, one of my cousins. Even if the spectular celebration was done, she wanted us to hang out with her. Of course, I couldn't let her know my sadness. I could get her worried.

I am not fond of liquiors as I have problems with its smell. Undestand me but, I only do some quick sips and nothing more.

I danced with all my heart, together with them. A dozen songs played until a slow, sweet balled came blasting the speakers,

{ Bottom of the Ocean -Miley Cyrus [listen to it, it's a beautiful song and it really fits to your emotions] If you're not familiar with the song, then read it as a poem. }

It's been in the past

For a while

I get a flash and I smile

"Am I crazy? Still miss you baby..."

It was real it was live

But it burned to have to survive

All that's left is

All these ashes

Where does the love go?

I don't know...

When it's all said and done

How could I be loosing you forever

After all the times we've spent together

I have to know why

I have to lose you

When you've just become

Like everything

I'll never find again

At the bottom of the ocean...

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k r i s