I'm terrified of death. I used to want it. But now I realized I just wanted the pain to end. It hit me a couple of years ago that the pain wouldn't end. It's part of the packaged deal that comes with life. Life is something that we take for granted. Like I said, I'm terrified of death. Probably because I'm scared that when I die, nothing happens. I wish I could see what happens after death. But doesn't everybody? I have someone close to me who I think could die soon. I hope not though. I really need this person in my life but the choices that they are making aren't good for their body. I hope I'm wrong. I hope that when death comes to me, I won't be just a lost souls, trying to find peace, but I hope that I won't be alone. That I will be able to find my family, get to know they people that I had long forgotten that I even knew were my relatives. I truly hope that I'm not alone when I die. I don't want to die knowing that no one will remember me. Even if I become famous for my songs. Or books. Or anything that I might make in this lifetime. I hope I love to be something else. Not reincarnation, but not completely gone.
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The diary of a depressed teen.
Короткий рассказContains depression, suicidal thoughts, self-harm references, and my strong opinions about everything I'm angry about at the time of which I write each chapter. This is just how I feel my life is going right now.
