Born to be yours (Book I)

Engagement

[Engagement ring of zeeniya]

Zeeniya pov:-
I woke up pray fajr and get ready fastly. Today is Sunday so me, Kashee and Ruhi are going on breakfast.

I drove to the restaurant where we decided to have our breakfast, I saw both of them are waiting for me and as usual I'm late.

"Salam" I said as I reached to them they replied and we ordered our breakfast. While eating we talked a lot about random things and after breakfast we go to a nearby park for some fresh air.

Days passed after the confession of mine to myself actually, but still we didn't talk, me and him always take glimpes of each other. I haven't any idea what's going to be the next. I have a fear inside of me, fear of losing him I don't want to fall but eventually I fall. I was in my thoughts when Ruhi nudged to go back to home.

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I came back home and saw everyone in living room discussing something as I entered they all become silent.

What's up to them now? I thought .I said my salam and they all replied I also take seat next to safa who was munching biscuits.

"Beta Zee we both wanna talk you about something really important " Baba said and I become tensed. I know what's coming up to me but I can't hurt my parents not again.

" shall we? " Baba asked and I nodded.
"Beta there's an alliance for you we found them a good family and the guy is also good for you. Beta we are not forcing you but it's good for you to say yes because we want the best for you and I have a feeling that you will be way more happy with him" Baba said.
"Take your time beta,after all its your life decision but I really Luke this proposal and I'm very serious about it " Baba said and I nodded.

I felt tears forming in my eyes but I don't let them out, not in front of my parents.

"Baba I want some time to think about it" I said after gathering the courage left in me. Baba just nodded and I almost ran to my room because of my heartache.

I locked my room remove my abya and hijjab and jump on my bed I hugged my pillow and allow myself to breakdown. I cried and cried for the whole day.

My world just shatter in front of me and I can't do anything. I felt like someone is punching my heart continuously and minute by minute its getting hard for me to breath.

The whole day passed I didn't ate anything, I didn't talk to anyone. I'm tossing myself again and again but I'm feeling like I lost my peace I push myself up from the bed and done ablution and offer two rakah of hajjat.

All I was doing is just crying so why not I cry in front of ALLAH.

"Only in the remembrance of ALLAH heart can find peace" I remind this verse and more tears shed from my eyes.

I raise my hands in front of ALLAH and pray for my best.

ALLAH pak your the Almighty, your the most merciful and forgiving please ALLAH pak forgive my sins I know I'm wrong, I should not fall in love with some guy I should have control myself. ALLAH pak please help me to choose the right path please ease my pain I'm feeling like my heart will burst out. I know you never burden a soul more than he/she can bear. ALLAH your the only one who knows me more than me you know the best for me. Please ALLAH led my happiness there, where's your happiness take place.

I prayed to my Rab and felt some peace ,I recite the QURAN E PAK more than an hour.

I was sitting on the prayer mat and crying for the whole night in front of my ALLAH. Indeed he's the best planner.

Soon I heard the voice of fajr adhan I wipe my tears and wash my face drank some water and offer fajr salah I prayed my heart out in front of RAB-UL-ALAMIN and felt relieve.