kiss me through the phone ☾max mills

19 | im in love with him

[ PART TWO ]
s a d i e

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6 months later

" sadie come on! quick! she's going to be home soon! " the annoying, repetitive voice belonging to young josie hitchcock yells, as i sprint up the stairs carrying a pile of food and treats.
" i'm running as fast as i can and besides, if we get caught the blame would be on be even if i didn't take part " i call back, my voice level lowering as i approach our room.
i dump the food into our hiding spot in the wardrobe and then close the doors, " we all know mrs walker hates me the most "
" well maybe you shouldn't have spilt jackson's baby food all over her new top " josie states, causing me to roll my eyes,
" well maybe you shouldn't have ran into me whilst carrying the top "
" well maybe you should have been watching where you were going "
" well maybe- " i begin to retort back, remembering the day mrs walkers strong hatred for me began, but am abruptly cut off by someone butting in.
" okay we get it! can't you two go one night without arguing, it gives me a headache " josh complains as me and josie both turn to look at him.
" sorry josh " i say, making my way over to my bed that was beside his.
josie rolls her eyes and walks to the other side of the room to her bed without apologising.
" that girl just really infuriates me " i whisper as i pull the duvet over myself.
" who doesn't she infuriate " josh says, causing us both to chuckle.
" how come i always get the job of bringing the food up, can't someone else do it for a change? i mean it's a mission we conquer every sunday, shouldn't we have some sort of rotor? "
" you're the quickest runner, therefore if someone else was on the job we'd probably get caught and then starve for the following week "
" i guess, i just don't see how it's fair " i shrug and turn to face josh who was already facing me.
" when has life ever been fair to us? " he says as he looks around the room at all of the other children who have ended up like us, stuck in mr and mrs walkers house hold.
cooking, cleaning, looking after their baby.
that's all we seem to do.
there's 8 of us here, me, josh, josie, rebecca, daniel, rosa, emma and luci, yet the chores never seem to get completed quickly.
" have you ever had anyone in your life? you know, that was actually there for you? " he asks and my dad instantly comes to mind.

i recall how my body jarred with each blow, how the pain seared through my skin and took away every feeling of safety i ever had. my father put his all into each strike.
crying wasn't allowed.
if i buckled he would tell me to stop, or he'd give me something to cry about.
he meant it too.
and to think this is the man that was once one of the people i loved most in the world.
the one who would buy me ice cream and lift me high upon to his shoulders whilst we walked through the town.
my dad once meant to much to me.
but that soon changed with time.
he was my hero and my monster,
but now i've moved on and i can't live that way anymore.
i can't take love from one who hurt me,
i just can't.

" well, my mum was always there for me- " i begin, but josh once again decides to interrupt.
" what about your dad? i thought you were close with him once too? "
" he hurt me josh. i can't take love from him anymore or try and make up some fantasy that he was my childhood hero " i explain and josh nods understandably, " then there was this girl called talia who was so incredibly sweet. she was willing to be friends with me even though the entire school looked down on me. i've never met anyone with a bigger heart than her. and then.."
i pause as he comes to mind.
max mills.

i remember exactly how complicated mine and max's relationship was.
we went from two people who despised each other so passionately, to two people who truly cared for each other.
in his embrace the world stopped still on its axis.
there was no time, no wind, no rain.
my mind was at peace.

we may be miles apart as of now, but he never leaves my mind.
he's always there; mentally if not physically.
it's just incomprehensible.
he's my one stable force, my one stability in a world filled with chaos and i so desperately need that in my life.
i love him so much for that.
i'm in love with him and i can't believe i've only just realised it.

" and then? " josh says, snapping me out of my intense daydream.
as i open my mouth to try and string a sentence together about how max made me feel, the door swings open.
" lights out " mr walker says as he flicks the light switch off, " see you in the morning "

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M A X

i watch as my feet take steps across the glossy tiles, my dusty canvas sneakers next to the shined pointed-toe leather shoes of passing students.
as we walk, we pass sadies locker.
however it was no longer sadies locker, it now belonged to a new kid called mike herley.
and i can tell you for a fact that he is the biggest dick i know.
he completely stole my friends and now walks around as if he owns the place when in reality he's only been here for 6 months.
now i see how people must've viewed me,
no wonder sadie hated me.

" do you ever miss her? " i ask talia as we turn into the lunch hall.
" who? "
" sadie "
we both grab a red tray from the stack and queue up to get our lunch.
" of course! she was so sweet max and she had the best sense of humour, i don't know how you ever hated her, or why anyone did for that matter " talia exclaims.
" me neither "

she's been gone 6 months and there's not one day i don't think about her and how she's getting on.
if only there was some way of contacting her.

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