My Mind - Short Stories From My Imagination

Part 10 ~ Feeling ~ Fear for a fictive character

No swearing.

It's weird... Whenever I watch a movie or series, or even sometimes when I read a book, I see a character that's near death. While this characters is just seconds away from death, whatever the reason, sometimes I get this feeling in my stomach... This weird feeling... Like I know they're probably going to die... So I get this weird feeling like I know it's going to happen... I have never heard of anyone else feeling like this, so I decided to name the feeling in my stomach as "Fear for a fictive character". 

I've experienced this feeling a few times over the last 5 - 6 years I think. It doesn't even have to be an important character. Earlier today I was watching a movie with my boyfriend and a couple of minutes into the movie two out of three security guards get shot and killed. The third one gets to leave if he promises to keep his mouth shut. He agrees and runs away, unfortunately he doesn't get very far before he gets shot in the back and dies.

When he got the opportunity to run I got the feeling in my stomach that something was wrong. Seconds after I got the feeling the guy died. There is times where I get the feeling but the character survives. But regardless if they die or not the feeling is there, sometimes. There are times where a character is close to death and I feel nothing. But when the feeling is there I get both intrigued and nervous.

I'm a big fan of action movies and TV series about crime and such, so I see characters close to death a lot of times every day, but most of the time I don't get the feeling. A few months ago I started to get the feeling when I'm around my boyfriend. Not because I fear for my life, and he's not hurting me in any way either. Don't worry. I can't explain why I get the feeling and it's not something that comes very often, but it has been there enough for me to notice it.

A few weeks after I got the feeling for the very first time while watching a movie, I told my then best friend about it. She thought that I was joking and started laughing. I don't blame her, it does sound like a joke, even to myself while writing this. But I promise I'm not joking or lying. I haven't told my boyfriend about it yet, but I want to. I just don't know how to say it without sounding too stupid. Hence the song "Sorry".

As said before, I'm not trying to lie to you guys and I'm not joking either. This books whole purpose is for you who might be interested, to know more about how I think either while sleeping or being bored. But I thought I would try something new and describe a feeling I sometimes get too. I don't know if the few of you that are reading this book is more interested in the stories or the thoughts behind them (my guess would be the stories) but regardless there's both in this book.

I know this isn't really a story but more like a filler chapter if you can say it like that, but I hope you guys enjoy it anyway. And when my boyfriend wakes up again after his nap I'm going to show him this chapter, so wish me luck and let's hope he doesn't think I'm joking or faking, or maybe both.

I would also like to know if any of you guys out there know about this feeling or if it's just me. Or if you have experienced some other feeling while seeing fictive characters in those situations. It would be interesting for me to know how you guys feel when (and if) you get the feeling.