Illusions | Loki & Jane

9. Power of Women

Two years had passed since their first kiss. Jane was practically living with Loki in his apartment, she only used her parents house as a lab. Loki had a few excuses for the times he went to Asgard; once in two weeks, he would have to go on a business trip, one weekend in the month he would go golfing with his colleagues and the other days, which he stayed away just a day or two he would be doing overtime in the office. Jane didn't scrutinize his reasons for leaving anymore, since they have had a huge fight over it.

"Why do you even ask me that?" Loki was aghast about the question the woman had asked him.

"Well, a friend of Darcy, who we were having drinks with last week, told me about this couple she knows and the man is always gone because he is cheating on her in a hotel with another woman, so I just wanted to ask -"

"You just wanted to ask because a friend of your friend knows someone who cheats? Really, Jane? You can't be serious!"

"Well, I just wanted to -"

"I thought you trusted me."

"I do, but -"

"But you don't." Loki's face showed disappointment.

"JOHN! Would you please let me finish for a sec?" She was getting angry now.

"Sure go ahead." He rolled his eyes tauntingly.

"I really don't want to wake up one morning, finding out this whole relationship and love was a lie, I just wanted to make sure that I don't have to question your motions!"

"Well I am worried now, if you can't trust me, what sense does this relationship make?"

"What?" She was speechless, did he really just say that? He didn't answer, he was just looking at her madly.

"Do you mean that?" Her voice was shaking and she felt tears coming up. He still didn't answer, his features were harsh, looking at her unfeeling.

"WELL, FINE!" She screamed with the tears running down her cheeks. "Probably you are right! It wouldn't even change nothing if we would end this! You are never even here anyways!" The moment she had said that, she regretted her outburst. Oh shit, she thought, seeing the hurt in his eyes. "John." She said pleading and wanted to take his arm and say sorry, but he backed away.

"Fine." He hissed through his teeth. "As you wish." He strode to the door, left the apartment and slammed the door behind him without looking at her one more time. When the door was closed, Jane burst out in tears. She felt sick and empty, what had just happened? Sure they had fights all the time; for example about him always throwing his used socks through the room or her being unable to cook or clean properly or about him complaining about her cooking and cleaning - which was why they had a cook and a cleaner now - or about dissensions regarding their plans in their spare time. But those fights were pointless and most of the time they laughed about it or made love afterwards, but this was different, this was a deep-seated issue. Was it really over now? Jane sank to the floor, crying with her face buried in her knees.

Loki strode to a bar angrily when he had left the building. How could she question him? He ordered six beer and after the last one he felt slightly drunk. He sighed into his mug feeling the sorrow coming up. He heard her words echoing in his head: I don't want to wake up one morning, finding out this whole relationship and love was a lie. It hurt him so much, because it was the truth.
My dear Jane, he thought, the relationship is already a lie, it is an illusion. I am not the man, you think I am. My name is Loki, I am a Demigod and a Frostgiant, son of a God and a king, brother of Thor, who will be king. I live in Asgard and I am no human, I am so much older than you think I am and everything you know about me is a lie, but my love certainly isn't. He closed his eyes and lay his forehead on the counter, resting his head, groaning frustrated.