Happier// Phan

Chapter Six

** Thank you to Micro-Wave for helping me AGAIN with this chapter, honestly she might as well write this book she helps me that much**

"Promise that I will not take it personal, baby, if you're moving on with someone new"

Phil's POV

I run out of the bathroom leaving Dan behind probably confused or happy but I don't care, I need to get out this place before I lose my head.

"Phil, wait up! Let me explain" I hear Dan calling from behind me, hearing his voice sets something off in my head.

"I don't need your explanation Dan!" I continue walking through the crowds not caring if I'm too loud. Soon my vision starts to blur and it feels like the room is closing in on me, I look down at my feet to try and regain my balance but they feel like jelly.

"Phil stop being such a child and listen to me for Christs sake" Dan continues pleading from behind me as everything begins to worsen.

I stop in my tracks and turn around to face Dan "Why should I let you explain now when that's all I did before and even then you still lied through your teeth!" I argue, tears slowly start making their way down my face.

"Phil I didn't lie" Dan replies softy unlike myself.

"Yes you did, every time I went out of town you said you did nothing but-", I am cut off when my legs give on me and begin to lose my balance, due to the images flashing through my mind.

"Phil, please sit down you're going to get hurt" Dan tries to help me.

"No! Don't fucking touch me" I push Dan off regaining my balance again "You cheated on me Dan and nothing can change that" More tears begin to escape my eyes as I remember when I found them "You didn't care about me at all" I continue and so did the tears, all voices around me were no longer existent, only Dan's voice pleading for me to stop. I grab the container of straws and chuck it Dan in anger " You didn't have a care in the world about my feelings!"

"I did Phil, please stop" I hear him plead once again through the choking of my tears and emotions.

"No you didn't, whenever we argued I told you how I felt and you obviously didn't listen to me otherwise you would have known how I was feeling!" I begin to wobble again, I see Dan take a step further to assist me "Don't come any closer Dan!" I say stepping back.

We both fell silent, only the sounds of my sobbing and tears were heard. Dan looked so apologetic toward me his big brown eyes reflected the disco ball hanging from the ceiling making it look like he had a whole galaxy in his eyes... Wait I shouldn't be thinking these things about someone who broke my heart.

"You are so fucking beautiful but why did you have to be such a dick to me" I look down at my feet watching as the tears fell off my face marking either the floor or my shoes with the room still spinning dramatically around me. "Why me!?" I yell through the tears "Why am I the one who always get hurt!" I say grabbing anything within my reach and throwing it to try and relieve my anger "I always get ignored, pushed around or hurt, why me?" I continue saying over again throwing things repeatedly using all the energy I have left. I cry and cry until I am completely drained of emotions, my legs finally give out letting my fall, my break down has won. I knock Dan over onto a chair and I fall into Dan's arms feeling the warmth in his chest causes me to melt and fall asleep.

"You may have hurt me a lot but I still love you...it's not fair"

Dan's POV

I grip Phil tightly making sure that he doesn't slip off and hit his head, the last thing I want to do is cause him more pain. The crowd disperses and goes back to doing their own thing, leaving Phil and I alone. I look down at his pale face, wiping the dried tears from his cheeks while also caressing him lightly.

"Oh Phil why did I have to ruin everything that was between us..." I say to him pushing his hair back from his face.

Even when he is sleeping I can still tell he is in pain, his body shakes as he his bundled up on my chest... I have missed this feeling so much: the feeling of being able to protect Phil, calm him down after an attack or just have him simply cuddled up to me.

"Pj is nothing like you..." I admit "I mean no one is anything like you Phil which is why I cannot seem to figure out why I would cheat on you..." I say to Phil running my fingers through his soft silky hair "Pj is just so pushy and needy, I like my space and that is one thing he does not give me. When he doesn't get his way he acts like a child, not like cute child like a spilt brat... I guess it is my fault but I still love him I guess too" I rant..."But you are so perfect and pure. How could I be so stupid? I wasn't thinking, now look what pain I have caused you... I hurt you or even worst I broke you, such a sweet innocent being that deserved nothing but love, compassion and honesty and you got none of that from me, only hate and betrayal. And because of my selfishness I lost you, you'll never hold me again, never to reassure me with your kind and gentle words... Those oceanic eyes that only ever EVER gave out love to me but I... well I never truly returned it, only to go off and love someone else but I guess after all of this I deserve all the hurt I received earlier and in the future..." I look down at Phil who now has a single tear running down his cheek but is still asleep, I gently wipe the tear away from his face to continue running my fingers through his hair. "Geez that was so cheesy and I'm glad you didn't hear one word of that but in all honesty Phil, I still love you and I will continue to do so until I die."

I completely forget about my "date" with Pj so I stay with Phil making sure no one will do anything to him and because I know this won't ever happen again, I want to make the most of it.

"Goodnight Lion" I whisper into his ear watching as the slightest blush appears on his cheeks.

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Please don't hurt me. Hiya my little Charmaniacs, so the next chapter might not be out for a while I'm trying to figure out what I want to do at the end before I continue, if you guys have any ideas feel free to message them to me or comments them. Until next chapter, byee

~Charlizard <3