Stephen and Sharpies ~ Watty Awards 2012

Chapter Twenty-One

January 1st, 2009

Dear Alec,

    It’s New Year’s Day again. I am sitting down again to write you a letter. This time I have no idea what to say. My last letter that I never gave you was pretty corny and stupid sounding. I promise you I will never put you through the torture of reading it. I know it would be pretty hard to read. I even find it hard to read and I wrote it. I feel pretty stupid writing you a letter especially since I probably won’t even give it to you. Though it’s the though that counts right? That’s what they say anyways.

    I made a New Year’s resolution this year…like ever year. This year I want to go to a dance. I was think maybe the Sadie Hawkins Dance in February, the Valentine’s dance. I will get to choose who I want to take to the dance and not be chosen. I don’t get chosen anyways, but it is nice to be the picker versus the picked. This letter is pointless I guess except for I want to ask you, do you want to be my date for the Sadie Hawkins Dance?

    [] yes

    [] no

    I already am sure of your answer, since you are dating Alley Cornwall. I know you will say no because she’s serious. Your first real love, that’s what I’ve heard. I am in love with you, so I guess you are my first love. I think it doesn’t count though until the other feels the same or at least knows about the other’s feelings. Maybe I am wrong, but it seems that is how it is. Alec, I know you won’t got to the dance with me, so can you just forget about this whole thing. I might not even give this to you and then I don’t have to worry about it.

    I have no idea, I really like you Alec. I want to be more than friends, but it never seems to work out. I play out scenarios of us. If we date then you will be the jock and I the outcast. It would never work, I would be too weird for your friends and you would be too cocky for my friend. We would be a great couple just a horrible match.

    In another scenario we begin to date. We date and date and then we realize we really don’t like each other. So we go back to being friends, but of course it is awkward and we slowly drift apart. Until finally we are no longer friends and we go our separate ways.

    My favorite scenario to play it is actually the one I think could really happen. We start to date at the Sadie Hawkins Dance. We kiss and smooch and hug. You and I do all kinds of boyfriend and girlfriend stuff together. We find out we are madly in love and care so much for each other, a huge surprise to both of us. Then after two three years you propose. I accept and then we marry together under a gazebo in the rain.

    Wow, I sound entirely creepy. It is official that I have now become the closest thing Stayton will ever have to a stalker. Congratulations Alec you have managed to turn me into more of a freak than I was before. I am sorry to say that now you are stuck with me. I think that you might understand though since you are technically my friend. I can’t believe that you, Alec Casey are my friend. Who ever thought that a outcast and jock could be best buddies? I don’t know if maybe you still have a little nerd in you, hiding away from the jocks, but you still got heart. You still are like me in a way.

    Well Alec, I think I am done creeping you out and all. I am pretty sure I won’t be sending you this letter, maybe next year I will. Maybe next year I won’t like you anymore or we will already be dating. Who knows. Alec you really are a nice guy, just wished the geek never went away when you went jock.