Poetry From The Heart

Ignored

A/N: Please read the Author's Note at the end.
Even with fake smiles I put on for friends,
Even with the chaos taking place all around,
I'm struggling underneath my skin.
I'm shaking with every breath,
I'm spacing out to think of the things that make me saddest.
I'm thinking of being with you.
You're my entire world, my only focus, but it doesn't seem like I am yours.
I want to spend every waking moment with you, want to think of you last when I drift to sleep.
I want to be with you whenever I can, because it seems when I'm not with you, I can't breathe.
You want to spend time with your friends, playing games and showing them attention.
I sit there patiently, waiting for your small glance and in that moment I am in bliss - just to be ignored again, almost trapped in a cage like a bird wanting to take flight.
I understand, there are more important things than I am, but I need you, too.
You are my boyfriend, shouldn't you care how I feel?
Shouldn't my opinions, my needs, matter?
And when I do finally get the attention I desperately need, I forgive it all, the pain you caused.
I allow it to slip, your hugs mending my broken heart, and then again it breaks as I lose you again.
I never know what to do when I'm ignored by you.

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Okay, this was just my pent up frustration into a poem I took out on my boyfriend.
I won't lie, there are times when I feel as though his friends get more of his attention than I do, but it's not ALL the time like it seems in the poem.

Maybe I'm clingy or something, but I want his attention, you know?

But, this poem was just out of frustration, okay?

He's a good guy, don't bash him, please. :)

Thank you for reading this, I hope you enjoyed it.

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Rosa Vazquez.