𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬. 𝘥𝘰𝘭𝘢𝘯 𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘴

My Confession

today's the day, i'm finally confessing my feelings to my crush after 5 months. i'm really nervous about telling him, like what if he likes another girl? would we stay friends? am I gonna ruin our friendship, i hope not.

"i'll tell him at the fields..." i smile, remembering my talk with his seatmate, she nods.

i glanced at the clock, 3:45. 15 more minutes and its time. i glanced at him, and suddenly regret it, he's looking back at me, and he hid a smile from me.

the bell rang, signalling that the class was done, i grabbed my bag and walked towards him, I would always wait for him as we go downstairs together.

we started to walk downstairs taking a quick and nervous smile at his best friend, he gave me a thumbs up. we finally arrived at the fields, taking a seat down on the grass, still not yet ready. until someone speaks up,"okay, everyone in here is gonna speak the truth. who's your crush?" it as Ali.

she pointed at each of us, and i glared at her knowing that she knows about me having a crush on my best friend.

"how about you ethan?" she smirks, and ethan blushes and my heart started to ache for his hug.

"noo!" he whines, and I smack him in the arm.

"come on, and we'll tell y/n!" my eyes widen at grayson and ali's remark, and i shake my head no.

he smirked and nod,"but i'm just telling grayson." and i shake my head no, then saying,"that's too unfair!"

they started to walk away from us, looking at ali and sylvia, glaring at them.

"how the hell am I gonna confess to him when he's just gonna rejected me." I pout laying down on the grass, surrendering from my dangerous confession.

"he won't!" sylvia pats my back and i disagree with her,"what if he like Esther?"

then we herd footsteps and it was them, ethan and grayson. grayson gave me a emotionless look, and I couldn't decipher what he was trying to say with his emotion.

"give us at least a clue!" sylvia whines, and they looked at each other before saying,"she only has one A in her whole name."

my heart broke in million of fragile and meaningless pieces, Esther Trish Santos. she only has one A in her whole entire name. tears started to came but before they could fall down, i smiled then say,"excuse me, i have to get something back there!" i say, then gave ali a small smile saying my whole feelings she muttered me a no.

i ran out, ran away from them, i sat down on the curb, pouring my eyes out, after years of being best friends. i wished that they were only joking, my heart was broken into pieces by just one letter and that was A, after minutes of crying i heard laughter and it was them and i went to the back of the van and wiped my tears away, my heart breaking more when I realized that our bags were beside each other.

i saw him and gave him a big broken smile, and he gave one back to me, which didn't hid any sadness behind. it breaks me that every time i smile is a fake smile, a broken heart hid beneath it.

i walked towards his best friend, marc. he knew ethan's crush too. i begged from him to say it and he told me i was right.

"don't tell him that i told you this." he pleaded and i nod, tears still pouring,"it's Esther..."

that made me cry harder, my soul slowly leaving my broken body.

"y/n please don't cry!" he hugs me, caressing my hair, and i sobbed in his shirt.

i started to walk back to the van making sure that i don't look like that i just went down on an emotional breakdown, which was true. i was about 3 foot away from him when he said,"y/n, why are you crying?"

i shake my head in act of disagreeing with him, and went to ali and slowly sobbing on her shoulder before she excuses us, then she started to speak,"don't cry, it's gonna be okay."

then i sobbed more harder,"how? when i know that the man i love, likes another girl. i hopelessly fell in love with him."

she spent hours to comfort me but it wasn't enough, i saw that ethan was peeking at us, but would go back.

we went back and she wanted me to go first and i shake my head cause ethan was beside me but she glared at me and i gave in.

the ride was pretty uneventful? we would look at each other then look away.

he went down leaving me by myself, i started to sob again, missing him and that i ruined our friendship.

i went down the vehicle and to my room, grabbing my phone starting to write something, i wanted to finally confess to him, my feelings.

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there might be a part two for this