I don't want a world, I only want you

Despair

Beam had a gap for two hours, so Pha wants them to stay in the library and Beam just follows thinking that it is good decision seeing that their final exam roughly in next two months. The more you work, the luckier you get.

But Kit can't follow us, it seems Ming already kidnapped him, the moment Kit step out from the class, Ming already at the outside and snatched Kit away. Even Kit didn't manage to say no. Really fast that kid.

Pha sits in front of him and Beam keep asking Pha some questions that he can't understand. Sometimes Beam is really grateful having Pha as his friend, he never forgets about his friends and also Pha is genius- can explain in simplest form suitable for he and Kit's brain.

"Beam."

"Hmm." Beam does not move his eyes from the book.

"I want to talk, look at me."

Beam moves his face up and stare at Pha. "Talk."

"I never see Forth anymore in this past three days. Where is he?"

"Oh, he is out of town right now, maybe tomorrow he will be coming back. Why?" Beam feels weird, Pha never once asking about Forth.

"Don't be angry but I saw him yesterday, in a bar with a girl accompanied him. Pretty one, looks a little bit as you." Pha says worriedly and also, he wants to see Beam's reaction.

Hearing this, Beam holds his pen tightly, "Maybe you get a wrong person?"

"No, I'm not. I already talks to him, but he says to me not to tell you that I met him. So, what is happening right now, Beam? Is there something that is happening with your relationship right now?" Pha's asking.

"I-I already sense something is wrong, but wherever I ask Forth, he will not say anything. So, I really don't know why Forth lied to me or should I say avoid me?"

To tell the truth, Beam is kind of bewildered right now. Why Forth avoid him? He really never did anything that will makes Forth angry, he doesn't drink anymore, doesn't meet another girl, so why Forth acts this way?

He can sense this problem a month ago, usually Forth really never stop trying to touch him later on he will treat him as a joke or act it as an accident. Beam never hates Forth's touches but he wants to be mean, so Forth will coax him saying it will never happened again. But, one month before, Forth really stop touching him, no more holding hands, no more accident kiss and of course Beam feels weird but he really can't ask Forth. So, he keeps quiet.

Not just only that, Forth sometimes will makes up excuses not to meet him for lunch or dinner just only sends him to faculty and later will sends him back to his room. Afraid that Beam will not eat lunch, he will ask one of his junior to bring him food. And before sent him back to his room Forth already had a take-away dinner for him. See! It's mean, Forth still cares about me and maybe just get a little bit busy. So, as a good wife, he will not say anything, trying to be understanding person.

And this is the way he repays me? Meet a new girl? Pretty girl? I cut your dick to pieces!!

"Whoa, whoa. Relax, Beam, relax. That is one scary face you make." Pha brings back Beam's mind to reality.

Without any choice, Beam tells the story about him and Forth from the beginning- the drunkenness, sex, threaten, loves and lastly his act.

"So, basically, you already love Forth, but he doesn't know that. You make him promise not touch you not until you confess your loves to Forth. And it's already three months since that day." Pha nods in understanding.