I don't want a world, I only want you

The Love I Give

I'm really really sorry for the late update. Enjoy the reading~ Hurhur...

  Feeling nervous, Beam moves quickly and keeps pressing the bell continuously until a certain handsome man opens the door.

Once, Beam sees the one who opened the door, a surge of happiness come and let him smile happily. He's here! He's here! He didn't leave me! Lam really lied to me! Beam cannot stop smiling.

With his excited emotion, Beam quickly jumps onto Forth and Forth doesn't have any other choice than to hold him, afraid he will fall down. Suddenly, Beam cries. All the horrible things he did to Forth, come onto his mind. He feels guilty. He should never treated Forth like this, a man who always make his loneliness dissappear. 

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Beam continuously says these words. All the words that he keeps rearranging in his mind suddenly becomes blank. Only these words he can says.

After a long time, finally Beam can calm himself down. Seeing that Beam stops crying, Forth puts him down, calmly says, "Out."

Beam suddenly becomes terrified. Forth never becomes so cold when talks to him. Where is the warmth Forth, the man who always take care of him, makes him feels secured.

"F-Forth." Beam tries to touch Forth's face. But, the attempt was unsuccessful as Forth avoid it.

"Don't touch me." Forth's eyes full of disdain.

"No! No! Please, forgive me. Please!" Beam hugs Forth tightly but Forth doesn't even return the hugs back.

"Forgive you for what? There is nothing for you to apologize, in fact I'm the one who should." Still Forth never raised his voice. His voice is calm and cold, there is no love in there.

"You can yell or hit me to your heart content. You can do anything that you want to me. Just please, please don't treat me in this way." Beam begs Forth. He really afraid Forth will leave him.

"I want to 'do' you, you let me?"

"I let you. Whatever you want to do to me, I allow it. Just don't leave me!" Beam is so desperate.

Forth sighs. "Come in."

No need to say twice, Beam already sits in Forth's bed. Although he seems okay, but actually he very nervous inside. This is his first time after three months without sex. If it's Forth, he doesn't care how many times he wants to 'do' him, in fact he welcomed it very much. He wants to pay all the horrible things that he ever done to Forth, and if this will make Forth happy, he's happy to do it. 

Forth comes to him, together sit on the bed. Forth pinches Beam's chin, moves it upwards and kiss him roughly. Beam can also taste blood, the kiss was so intense and neither of them want to end their kiss. The kiss was fully expressed their needs for each other. Beam is so happy, that Forth still desired him. He can see Forth's cock is fully erected.

After a long time, both of them had to end their kissing, gasping for oxygen but Forth back to normal first and Beam wants to continue the kissing.

Suddenly, Forth blocks Beam's mouth with his palm and says, "I can't."

Forth gets up and wants to leave the room but Beam manages to hold his hand and makes them face each other. "Why? Why you can't when this 'thing' of yours already say yes ready to unleash its vigor?"

Forth sighs, "Do you know that I love you?"

Beam nods.

"Really, really loves you."