Just Persona Things 2

Specialty Oneshot {Akechi, Yuuchi}

Feels warning read at your own risk :)
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Buzz, Buzz

Yuuchi groaned and tossed and turned in the dark room. Curtains closed to keep light of the outside from seeping in. She cut herself off from all human contact since Lucifer was bearer or ill tidings. She couldn't control herself at all..she'd get extremely violent when only provoked a little bit. She refused to do anything because the thoughts in her head refused to give her some peace to think for herself. Her once beautifully colored sketch book had small crimson droplets on it from her recent self harm activities. "How did it come to this..." She trembled as she made a few more cuts with her aged assassin blade. Tears and blood mixed together onto the wooden floor beneath her, these were the scars she refused to show Akechi-no matter how close they were or if they actually loved eachother she just ultimately refused. It would create a bigger problem on top of an already growing one. Once she was finished she went to her bathroom washing off all the blood with cold water. After a few moments, she turned the water off looking herself in the face. Drained and pale features, distant indigo eyes, everything seemed so dark. "What happened to me.....? Why did I have to live like this...?" The swelling feeling in her throat kept rising as she tried swallowing down the tears that just seemed to keep falling from her crystal eyes. Her head then turned as she heard her phone continuously ringing, not even stopping once. So she walked over, taking it off the charger and answering the called with a small sigh.

"Hello...?"
'Ryoka-san? Finally, I'm glad you picked up. I was beginning to get severely worried....'
"You called me for a reason so what did you want...?" Her voice was low as she lied on her back on the bed that she sat on.
'I haven't seen you in almost two months Yuu-chan...I called you alot and you never responded until now...'
"Two months?" She spoke lowly with a nonchalant tone as her feet start to fiddle with the blanket on the other end.
'Did I ever do anything wrong for you to avoid me for two months..?'
"Nothing. Nothing is your fault Goro....far from it honestly...I just needed time by myself....I wanted to get myself together but....it isnt working like I had hoped..." She bit her lip as she glanced over at familiar blade on the floor.
'You're lying..Taylor thought that I drove you away. She gave me a verbal thrashing, saying I was incompetent and nothing more than scum for making you this isolated. When she brought this to my attention I knew of know such thing. I had to defend myself from the on-coming rampage until I convinced her that- I knew nothing about this.'
"I told her before I went and vanished was to not worry."
'How could any of us NOT worry Ryoka..? It's been two months about to go onto three...I want you to be and feel safe...'
"You don't understand...."
'I understand perfectly...you feel alone. You want to feel like you mean something to someone but always feel a spiralling pit in your chest that always seems to bleed a fresh layer when belittled or mistreated. You just want the acknowledgement from Marianne....to feel like you have a place and like you belong in this world Ryoka. Just like how I want that same treatment from Shido...but we both know full well that their judgements are clouded with greed. We only exist as puppets...so we have to be there for eachother to survive Yuuchi.'
Her eyes started shining in tears as she covered her mouth to keep from sobbing loudly and for Marianne to hear.
"I don't want to live anymore Goro....not like this..." Her voice cracked almost in a low squeak as small sobs fell from her cracking facade. It pained him to hear all of this over the phone, wishing he could just drop everything and race over to her aid to comfort her. But alas...he was prohibited from dropping everything when his job requires all hands on deck protocol.
'Ryoka....please don't say that... Breathe, I know how your nerves get when sent into a panic but just listen to me. How would you think I would feel if you had left this world...? I wouldn't even know what to do with myself and who knows what your other friends would do to me if they found out that you had died. They would blame me for the cause....because I couldn't save you like I had promised I would. So stay with me......I promise everything will get better Ryoka. Trust me...'

⛔Call Ended