Bleeding Souls

Ch. 14- The girl who they love more.

     Hi, again. This brings to Chapter 14, thank you for joining me on this long and difficult journey. It hasn't been easy to talk about but it needs to be said and heard. So let's continue.

     I was not an only child if you remember from Chapter 10 I briefly mentioned my sister. She was born on March 29, 2004. She was 4 years younger than me, she had dark brown hair, and green eyes when she was born, but they changed to dark brown as she got older. As soon as my mother gave birth to her she said that my sister was a much easy birth than I was. It was then on that I would come to learn that both my parents love my sister more and are ashamed of me.

     She was better than me at every turn, in her athletics, grades, personality, just everything. They constantly told her that she was going places, that she would make something of herself in this life, but they never showed me the same kind of support. I was the junkyard dog that they never wanted. The "thing" that they just kind of kept because they couldn't get rid of it. My sister treated me like I was the younger brother. She talked down to me like I was an idiot. Often slowing down to make sure that I caught everything that she said. She would often reply to me cruelly sarcastic. My parents always took her side because she could never do wrong in their eyes but everything I did was a crime or it gave them another reason to look at me in disgust. They even talk to her about more about different things because she is such a great person, and I don't have enough interests. 

    Every time I tried and start a conversation with her she just shrugged me off like I was never there. She never physically said it but the way she looked at me and talked to me said it all, she was ashamed of the fact that she was related to me. She had this look like

"How could I possibly be related to that?" 

     She was their favorite child because of her accomplishments... and I was left to myself. Alone, secluded because she was their main priority. She was going to be successful, but I would never amount to anything. My dreams were too stupid for my parents but hers were everything that they ever wanted for her. I wish she could see how I felt... what it was like to be on the receiving end of the looks that she gave me, to be stuck behind someone else's achievements... There were days where we would actually get along like a family but then something would change and I was reminded of my place. The failure, the let down. I turn for help and my parents just ignore me for her. I don't hate her, I love my sister but it doesn't feel mutual. She will never understand what I feel and how I sink because of how they treat her... She will always be their daughter and I will always be stuck in her shadow...

     This is the end of Ch. 14. As much pain as some of these chapters cause me to write... the story must continue. I will see you in the next one.