Don't Be Mad At Me

Chapter 7 ~EDITED

Chapter 7: Seeking the past

Nicolai's POV

I brought her to the top of an abandoned building near the city limits. I wanted to show her the world that I saw, a beautiful world I kept to myself. But now I wanted her to be with me. I made a mistake once for not telling her. I don't wanna make the same mistake ever again. I know she didn't tell me the other reason she left. I just wanted to know why? Was she scared? Or was she mad at me?

She went to the railings and looked beyond the sky.

"It's beautiful Nic."

"Yeah it's beautiful, just like you."

"No, its not."

"Yes it is. Maddy, you're beautiful, why can't you see it?" she went silent and I knew why. I am such a screw up.

"Maddy, I'm sorry. I didn't mean it that way. I-" she cut me off

"No it's fine. it doesn't matter anymore. I need to tell you something. But please promise me to try and understand. Okay?"

I couldn't talk. So I just nodded my head. I had a clue on what she was going to say but what she said was something I could never be able to get over with...

"Nic, I- I –" she was cut off by one of my old friends.

"Hi Nic! And... Madelyn is that you?"

We both turned around to see Alana, Alana Rose was one of our friends but she betrayed us.

"Hi Alana." I said venomously. While Maddy just stood there, frozen and unable to speak.

"What? No greetings Maddy?" she said with a smirk. 

I saw Maddy shiver a bit. I held her closer and I could feel her stiffen as Alana stepped forward.

"Hi Alana, long time no see."  She said cautiously. She was scared and the three of us knew it. I would be too if something like that happened to me and in her condition as well. She should not be feeling stressed out.

"Yeah." Alana said as she walked closer. And as for Maddy, she hung closer to me, while I stood my ground and shielded her.

"What are you doing here?" I asked through my gritted teeth.

"What's wrong Nic? Don't you remember the-"

"SHUT UP!"I cut her off. I can't stand her and her lies anymore. They say that lies are the truth but just overrated.

"Why?! Are you scared to tell your beloved Maddy what you've been up to?" she was up to her tricks again. She was also the person who made me and Maddy fight a lot. She started rumors of us, her friends.

"What are you up to Alana?" Maddy finally spoke and she slowly let go of my arm.

"Oh didn't you tell her, Nic?"

"Tell me what?" she was starting to get mad. She wasn't supposed to be stressed.

"Maddy, don't listen to what she says. It's not true."

"Well your Romeo here isn't as loyal as you think. He was so happy when you left."

"No! He wouldn't!" she was shaking and I did the only thing I could do, I hugged her.

"Oh he did. He went to every club, every night." She was a devil in disguise.

"Stop it! Alana! Shut up!" that made her shut her up.

Maddy was crying. I knew Alana struck a nerve when she said I was happy without her in my life.

"C'mon Madds. Let's get you home."

We left. We didn't speak in the car. I just drove her home as fast as I can.

"Nic, I know your curios about Cody, so I'm just gonna say it. Cody was my friend in the hospital since I was diagnosed with cancer. I recovered and so did he, well not as much as I did. The cancer cells were still... they were still spreading. No matter how much radiation treatment was given. But-" I cut her off .

"Maddy, you don't have to tell the story. I know it hurts-"

"It's okay, I want to tell you."

I sighed and parked the car at the children's park.

We walked out and headed for the swings.

"So where did I stop?" she asked

"You were telling me about Cody not recovering completely." 

It felt like I was the one to blame. I didn't want her to feel alone yet I don't want her to keep all her emotions inside. I know how hard it is to keep it all inside. I don't want her to feel what I felt before I met her. She was the one that made me realize that you don't have to be always strong. You can be weak at times but that's what makes us stronger.

"Well the reason I left was because I needed a change of scenery and better medications. The doctors said that I still had hope. As for Cody, he was gone to deep and nothing can stop it, only prolong his life for a few months. I was having a great life here while he was suffering back there. It's all my fault that he's dead. It's all my fault." She sobbed and I all I could do was go and hug her.

"It's okay to let it all out. You should let out all the emotions you've kept in. just let it out." She was hugging me and I put her on my lap and cradled her. I still remember her dealing with me like this during sophomore year.

She was the perfect girl for me. and the day she left was there to haunt me till death.

We both just sat there hugging each other.

"I'm sorry Nicolai." She whispered just enough for me to hear her.

"Why are you apologizing?" I was curious as to why?

"You had to put up with me and my antics." She said in a hushed tone.

"Maddy... I'm the one who's to say sorry. I screwed up way before you even left. And you had to deal with me, my attitude, my family and everything. Now it's my turn to return the favor. Maddy I love you to Pluto and all the way back." She didn't reply but she hugged me closer and I did as well.