My Heart Knows EDITING

Chapter 10

Dani's P.O.V

I kissed her. I actually kissed her. And she kissed me back. I'm so happy. But I found out something. She's insecure about herself. I just wish she could see herself through my eyes. She's so amazing but she dosen't see it. I wish she would. Well, I'm going to show her how amazing she is. I'm going to take her out. 

I grabbed my phone and texted Rachel. We're pretty close now, ever since I almost killed Brody for her.

'Rach, i need your help, like.. now - D xox'

While I waited for a reply, I took out my guitar and strummed it for a bit. I was picking up a new tune when my phone buzzed.

'What's up D? - Rach xox'

'I want to ask San on a date. I want to ask her to be my Girlfiend.. I don't know how. Help me! - D xox'

I can tell she'll be freaking out wherever she is now.

'I'm there. Give me 5 mins. This is going to be so good! - Rach! xox'

I laughed at how she put an exclamation point after her name, she's definitely freaking out. I sat and waited until she returned home. I'm nervous as hell right now. She walked through the door, a smile on her face, "I have a plan" She said, smiling.

An hour later, i'm stood in front on the mirror, in a short, black dress. I'm shaking, because i'm so nervous. But everything is sorted, so i'm hoping for the best! I hear a door shut and San's voice, "Dani?" She asks, I then hear Rachel walk out of the kitchen and guide Santana to her room, and then she tells her to get changed, "Where's Dani?" she asks and I smile, even with everything, she still wants to know where I am. I wait another 20 minutes before walking out, I see her stood by her bedroom, in a red satin dress, that hugs her figure perfectly. Her hair is pulled back, and curled in a ponytail, with two curls w=either side of her face. She looks so amazing, I almost faint. She hears me behind her and spins around. She smiles and her eyes rake up and down my body, giving me goosebumps. I smile at her and start to walk towards her, she meets me halfway, pulling me into a hug. I smile into her chest and she places a kiss on my hair. She lets me go and I grab hold of her hand. "Shall we?" I say, she smiles, "Where to?" She asks, I tap my nose and she rolls her eyes playfully. I pull her out of the apartment shouting goodbye to Rachel. We walk through the park hand in hand and down a path behind some trees. I walk behind San and place my  hands over her eyes. She giggles and we walk until we reach the place. I slowly uncover her eyes and she gasps, "Its beautiful" she breathes. She looks around and takes in everything, the meadow and the small, crystal clear lake next to it. Its full of fish. She stares in wonder at the small waterfall on the rocks into the lake. I take hold of her hand again and slowly lead her through the flowery meadow until we reach the rock ledge above the lake. She gasps again when she sees the blankets and candles, I grab a basket. "I thought we could have some dinner" I say slowly, taking in her reaction. She nods speechless. I sit down beside her once she has sat. We sit and eat, we talk about everything there is to talk about. I really want to ask her something, but I don't know whether to or not. I decide to. "San, can I.. um.. ask you something?" I say, she nods, "Why are you so insecure about yourself, I mean, I know I am, but why are you?" I say, she looks down, "Um, well, when I told people about my sexuality, it wasn't my choice. I was forced out of the closet you could say.  Well, when I was forced out. People started talking. They would talk behind my back. Heck, they would talk in front of me. I would get called names. They told me I was not good enough. And I guess after a while I believed them. Then I told my parents. They were pretty cool. But my abuela, she wasn't" She said, she was about to cry, I could tell. I took hold of her hand and urged her to continue. "I remember exactly what I said. I said to her 'Abuelita, I love girls, the way I'm supposed to feel about boys. It's just something that's always been inside of me and I really want to share it with you because I love you so much. I want you to know me. Who I really am. When I'm with Brittany I finally understand what people are talking about when they talk about love. And i've tried so hard, to push this feeling away and keep it locked inside. But every day just feels like a war. And I walk around so mad at the world, when i'm really just fighting with myself. I don't want to fight anymore. I'm just too tired. I have to just be me.' Dani, do you know what she said to me?" She said, now she really was in tears, they were streaming down her cheeks. I pulled her to me and hugged her, before moving close to her. She lay her head on my shoulder, "What did she say San?" I said softly, I have a feeling this wont be good. "She said, 'I want you to leave this house. I don't ever want to see you again' My Abuelita Dani" she said, before completely breaking down. I immediately reached over to her and pulled her to me. Holding her tight. Trying to protect her from it all. Tears fell down my face into her hair and sobs shook her body. I held her for a long time, until her sobbing stopped. She sat up slowly. She looked me in the eyes, I saw the hurt and depth of emotion in her eyes. I saw all the pain. So I leaned forwards and kissed her, she kissed back immediately. I poured as much emotion and passion as I could muster into the kiss. I didn't hold anything back. We were both crying when I pulled back. I wiped her tears and looked her in the eyes. "San.. will you be my girlfriend?"

 

*A/N - Hope you like it... i've gone back to a dark place right now, so im so so sorry if its bad. I was crying whilst writing it, but you guys deserve an update, youre amazing. love you guys xox

~NayaDemixox*