Follow You h.s au

chapter forty-five

songs listened to while writing: 5AM- Amber Run, My Soul I- Anna Leone, Are You With Me- Nilu

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A few days go by and my only contact with Harry was a few texts here and there.

Nothing else.

We were starting to really get into rehearsals, and it had me really worried that Harry would lose his spot to someone else. He deserved that role more than anyone else.

Thankfully Gem had texted me asking to come over after rehearsal, so that's all I thought about the entire day. While throwing my school clothes back on I got in my Jeep and hurried over to the Twist house.

I pull into the driveway and throw my hair into a low messy bun before grabbing my keys and phone. I head up to the front door and knock, Gemma being quick to answer. "Great you're here! I have to be heading to Pitt soon, I just wanted to give you the run down." I furrow my brows "Run down of what?"

Gem whips her head back around, eyes staring at me. "You're not serious," Gem says "are you?" "Gemma," I calmly start "I have no idea what you're talking about right now." "That a.sshole," she cursed and then leaned against the wall. Her eyes softened as she looked over at me.

"Mum and Harry flew back to England this morning."

It felt like I had just gotten the wind completely knocked out of me. "Y-you're joking right?" I stutter and Gem shakes her head. "I can't believe he didn't tell you," she sighs "I'm sorry Thena. Harry's going through a hard time, harder than the rest of us. Losing Robin-" she paused "losing Robin really broke him. More than when dad left us."

"So you're going to Pitt," I say and she nods "just for the rest of the week. Then I'll drive back out to Temple. I'm planning to transfer to Pitt in the fall as well." Gem explains and I nod "Tell me what I'll have to do." "It's mainly just taking care of Dusty," Gem starts while we walked to the kitchen. "Stop by before school and after rehearsals to feed her, or just whenever you can during the day." She looks over at me "If there's any time you want to take her to your house go ahead."

"Gem," I say "how long are they going to be gone?" she shrugs "I don't know. Harry's going to be doing all of his school work over there, and he even worked it out with your dad that he can skype the Potter drama teacher to go over his lines." My heart stopped "My dad?" I squeaked "He talked to my dad?" Gemma nods "Call if you need anything alright? I've got to be heading out."

She walks over and hands me a key "Spare key to get in," she tells me "the one to the studio is by the back door." Gemma pulls me into a hug "Hopefully I'll see you soon Thena," she pulls away and smiles. She heads out, which leaves me alone in their kitchen.

I let out a deep breath when my eyes landed on Harry's camera on the counter.

With a post-it-note on it.

I walk over and take off the note, reading it.

A,

please watch the footage.

i'm sorry.

H x

I let out a shakier breath this time, sitting myself down in one of the chairs before going into the camera footage.

"Thena," Harry looks into his camera. "I don't really know how to put this into words." He fiddles with his hands "Please know that I love you, I love you so much." His eyes go up to his camera. "But I need to go, and I need to get help. My therapist in London, she's a miracle worker. I'm going to think of you everyday, I'm doing this for you. And I'm doing this for us. I love you angel, and I'll see you soon."

I wipe the few tears that escaped my eyes and I head out into the living room with his camera. I sit myself down on the hardwood floor, place his camera on the coffee table, and press record.

"It's so hard," I start "knowing that someone you love is in so much pain, but you don't know how to help them. Obviously I've tried but ultimately I'm stuck because I know he is hurting so badly-" my lip starts to quiver "and I can't help him."

A few tears run down my cheek and I wipe them away, my cardigan falling off my one shoulder. "Never in my life have I experienced anything like this, it's so hard to try and just describe it." I rest my head in my hand, my eyes clouded with tears. "I love him so much, and it hurts me so much to see him like this." I let out a little sob before wiping my eyes again. "I know it'll end up okay, it's just right now-"

I stop and cover my face with my hands to try and calm myself down, and then I continue. "It's just right now I want it all to be okay, and I don't want to have to wait for him to come back. I miss him." I wipe my eyes one last time before turning off the camera.

I go and put it back in the same spot I found it, gave Dusty some pets and food, and headed back home.

I had to go and face my dad now.

I hopped out of my Jeep and headed straight inside, not even stopping to drop my keys off. I head straight into my dad's office and slam the door open.

"Thena-" he tried and I just stared at him. "How could you?" I seethed "How could you keep that a secret?! That my boyfriend was leaving the country!" my voice grew louder and louder as I spoke. "You kept that hidden from me, Me! His girlfriend!" I screamed "You know I've been worried to death about him and everything going on!"

I stopped because my eyes were getting cloudy again, and I had no want for tears anymore. "He didn't want me to tell you," my dad calmly says "he didn't want anyone to know." I shake my head "Don't lie to me, do not sit here and lie to me. Harry is gone, and I have no idea when he's even stepping foot back into this country!"

I spin around and walk out, slamming the door behind me.

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... please still love me.  xoxoxoxo

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