songs listened to while writing: Keep Breathing- Congratulationz, Chasing Cars- The Wind and The Wave(Snow Patrol cover),
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Everyone is so cautious with me.
Not sure what to say, how to act.
Little things would set me off, and my friends noticed that. Like how Can't Help Falling In Love always made me emotional, or when I sang Fools Fall in Love I sang with more emotion than ever before. How If I Can Dream made me think of Harry immediately, and when prom started becoming a topic of discussion I would tune out instantly.
It had only been a week and my heart was hurting more and more everyday.
Dusty was now living at my house, I couldn't bring myself to keep going in and out of their house. She sleeps in bed with me, and sits by me on the floor while I get ready for school.
I wasn't the only one taking this hard though, Louis was hurting just as much as I was. Harry and Louis were really leaning on each other through losing Robin, and now Louis didn't have Harry with him.
"Hey kid," Louis walked over and plopped down next to me on the stage. "How you holding up?" he questioned and I shrugged. "It's hard," I admit "I really miss him. I haven't heard from him at all." "I haven't either," Louis responded "my mum hasn't heard from Anne yet. She's assuming they're getting settled in." I nod before resting my head in my hands.
"Love the matching," El smiles while walking up to the stage and standing in front of my dangling legs.
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"How's a girls weekend to go prom dress shopping sound?" she asks and I look down at her "What if he's not back for prom?" I question and she smiles before taking my hands. "Then I'll be your date," she replies "so we're going to get prom dresses and we'll drink when we get home. We'll cuddle with Dusty and watch a bunch of reruns of Grey's Anatomy while eating pizza." She gives my hands a squeeze "And you'll be okay Thena."
She lets go of one of my hands and takes one of Louis's. "You both have to remember," she starts "that neither of you are alone right now. You've both got me, and you've both got all our friends in your corner ready to take care of you."
El lets go of our hands and hops up onto the stage to sit right in between Louis and I. "I love you both with my entire heart," she says while wrapping an arm around both of us. "And I will be here for both of you, I promise."
I rest my head on her shoulder and I feel Louis do the same.
"Hey El," I say with my head on her shoulder "What's up princess?" she questions and I lift my head up.
"How does a hair cut sound?"
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"You've been growing out your hair for a really long time," Eleanor says while running her hands through it. "Are you sure this is what you want to do?" I nod without looking back at her. "I've had my hair long since I dated Ashton," I tell her "I need a change. It's time."
