Leigh's P.O.V
I plopped down on my bed and added Noah to my contacts and contemplated on how to start the conversation .
Leigh
Hey it's me Leigh. 6:40pm
Was that a right way to start or should I just said 'hi' or 'hello'
He started typing and the dots showed and stopped.
He doesn't wants to talk to you
Who would talk to a freak!
My own thoughts taunted me and before I shoved my phone under the pillow it beeped.
Noah
Leeee ! Are you doing okay!? 6:43pm
Leigh
I'm better thanks for asking. 6:45pm
Noah
Good . I was worried since I didn't see u rest of the day. 6:46pm
I blushed but my fingers still hovered over the keyboard unable to think of a reply.
Noah
Anyways where and when are we going to start our project ?? 6:55pm
He's annoyed at you!
Leigh
the library @ 3pm is okay? 6:55pm
Noah
Works for me. 6:56pm
Leigh
Can I ask u something ? 7:00pm
Noah
Idk can u ? :D 7:00pm
Leigh
Noah!
-_- 7:01pm
Noah
Jk ! Go ahead & ask Lol 7:02pm
Leigh
Um how did u know ...I was having an anxiety attack.. ?.. 7:06pm
The second I hit send I regretted it but I really needed to know.
Noah
Oh I had it years back as a 'symptom of a traumatic experience.' 7:08pm
Leigh
Oh Okay... See you tomorrow 7:09pm
Noah
Are you okay? 7:10pm
Leigh
Yes just tired 7:11pm
Noah
Goodnight and take care 7:11pm
Leigh
U too 7:12pm
I switched off my phone and sighed, texting was daunting task and that conversation got my exhausted.
I heard a soft knock on the door.
"Come in."
My dad entered and stood near the doorway.
"Can we talk Leigh?"
I shook my head. "You're divorcing , I heard it yesterday."
He walked towards my bed and sat down.
"I'm sorry you had to see that Leigh, we didn't mean it. It was spur of the moment but we both need space. I'll come back after things are cooled off between us okay?"
"Okay." I whispered with teary eyes.
"No matter what happens, we both will always love you." He said and hugged me rubbing my back.
"I love you too dad , please come back soon."
"I promise Leigh .Promise." He said and pulled away and left closing the door behind him with a soft click.
I laid back down and pushed my ear phones into my ears and played the songs.
Now I'm panicking inside
Heart feels like it's paralyzed
Cried so much my eyes are dry
Sick of all the fear I'm screaming
And I want to be somebody else for a while
to maybe get a little relief
there's no escape from this relentless hell
feels like it's got a grip on me
Cuz no one knows just what it's like
to live through such anxiety
Got to take a drug for all the pain
just to get away from reality
I'm so sick of it all
I just don't want to die
without knowing why
something's got a grip on me
Oh why something's got a grip on me
An uneasy mind
Why can't just I live a normal life
with no fear, no burdens
that just bottle up inside?
It's like nothing ever seems to just give in
I'm here, still with the pain and still I'm asking why
I listen to Stilrize- Anxiety over and over again staring at the ceiling just to feel I'm not alone.
Every lyric and every word describes me exactly.
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Teen Fiction"You're gonna be happy", said life, "but first I'll make you strong." Leigh Parker suffers from social anxiety disorder and depression due to her rough past . She hides her pain and suffering by acting strong and putting up a fake smile , hoping so...
