Fix me || Kim Namjoon

Chapter 40

Namjoon

I woke up early in the morning the next day and went to Dara. I was a few meters away when I saw the door open. Dara must got a visitor. But no one knows this place except..

Ji Han.

I took a peek at the door and I was right. I saw Ji Han with his men talking to Dara. Dara's eyes landed on mine. Her eyes told me to hide and I  did. I hide behind a large tree. After a few minutes, Ji Han came out with his men. When they are completely out of sight Dara came out and signaled me to come in.

I kissed her forehead when I got in. "Does Ji Han always visit you at this hour?" I asked. "No. Sometimes he'll come unexpectedly so we better be careful." She said and I nodded in response.

"Hey, wanna go somewhere?" Dara asked.

"Sure. But where are we going?" I asked.

"You'll see. Come, follow me." She said then went out. After a few minutes of walking, I saw railroad nearby and there's some containers on it. We go to the top of the blue container. 

"Why are we here love?" I asked.

She didn't answered and we sat down on the edge. She motioned her head for me to look in front and I averted my eyes.

Dara didn't answer instead she motioned her head for me to look in front. I avert my eyes. My eyes enlarge and my mouth become an 'o' shape. Words can't describe how beautiful is the view in front of us.

There's a river with the sunlight reflecting on the water. Chirping sounds of bird and the warm rays of the sun made the view more relaxing.

"This is my favorite place here." Dara said while admiring the view. 

"If it's your favorite place, then this is my favorite too." I exclaimed.

After a few minutes of silence, I felt Dara's warm hand on my arms. She's tracing my scar. "Remember the incident that cause this scar?" She asked and I nodded as an answer.

"It was me. It was me who did that to you."

"W-what? H-how? W-why?"

"I'm sorry. Me and the 2 year old Jinwoo just move to Seoul that time. He was sick. I was so poor that time so I need to rob even though I don't want to. I remember everything. I remember how you tried to call Jin. I remember how you fainted. I remember how blood is coming out of your arms. I felt guilt so I run back. Then I saw your handsome face. An innocent man got injured because of me. I called the ambulance. When I heard their car, I hid. I watched as they put you in the ambulance. I'm so sorry. I have to do it. I have no choice" 

"Hey love" I said then lift her chin up. "It's okay. I understand. Now tell me everything" I said.

"The bracelet. It a sign of our group. I didn't throw it away because it contains memories. Good and bad ones"

"Intrams. That's the day when I saw Ji Han. That's why I acted strange that time because I'm nervous. I'm nervous that you might know my past and broke up with me. After a few days, he called and said that I only have a month left. Sehun and Jungkook were there. I want that month to be memorable. I want you to be safe too that's why I told Sehun to follow you every time you will go out"

"Thank you"

"Thank you for what?" she asked.

"Thank you for everything that you have done for me. I'm sorry if I'm so hard to love. I'm sorry if I'm not a great dancer like Hoseok. I'm sorry if I'm not as handsome as Jungkook. I'm sorry if I'm not that good at cooking like Jin. I'm sorry for being not perfect. I'm sorry for being me"

Dara caressed my cheeks.

"Love.. No.. Don't say sorry for being you. I love you just the way you are. I don't care if you're not a great dancer, we can learn to dance together. I don't care if people think that you're not as handsome as Jungkook. For me, you're the most handsome man I've ever met. I don't care if you're not good at cooking like Jin. I just want to wake up in the morning with you by my side. I love all your flaws Namjoon. Always remember that"

I hugged her and she hugged me back. 

"I love you" I whispered.

"I don't"

"Love!" I whined.

"Just kidding. I love you too"

...

After a few days, I decided to move on Dara's house. Staying in a hootel will cause to much money. While I was fixing the table, Dara is cooking our food. A thought came into my mind nd decided to asked Dara.

"Love?" I called.

"Yes?" she asked.

"Jungkook said that your usual place is a hidden city in Korea, but why are you so familiar in this country?" I asked.

"That's true. Our main base is in Korea but sometimes we go here. Vacations, like that. I used to sleep here when I was young" she said then put the foods in the table. We started eating. While eating Dara's phone rang. She picked it up and looked at the screen. She turned of her phone and continued eating.

"Why didn't you answer it?" I asked.

"It's not important anyways" she said.

"Hunter is not important to you?"

Dara dropped her glass. She tried to pick up the broken pieces. I stopped her from getting it.

"I'm on it. Sit back" I said then started picking up the broken pieces. I threw it in the trashcan. I grabbed the broom and used it to get rid of the little pieces that I can't pick.

"L-love.. You're bleeding"

I looked at my fingers. One of it is bleeding. Dara dragged me into the sink and carefully wash my finger.

"How do you know him?" She asked. Not looking at me.

"Mina told me before I left" I said. She put a bandage after washing it.

"He likes you. He may feel hurt because you didn't answer he's call" I said.

"But love.."

"No, it's okay. Call him back. I'll just go in my room" I said then stand up. I didn't go in my room instead I go to the training room.

I removed my shirt and started punching the punching bag. I put all my anger on it. I don't know why I'm being like this.  My hand hurts because I've been punching it for the past minutes.

It hurts so much that I started to feel nothing.

I stopped and laid down.

"Why am I acting like this?" I mumbled to myself.

I heard the door opened. I covered my eyes by my arms. Dara tried to remove my arms but I fight back.

"Love.."

Just by hearing her sweet voice my mood can change in a few seconds. I removed my arms and looked at her. She caressed my hand. She sit me up and started to wipe my sweat. Her hand landed on my chest where my heart is located. She looked down. I heard her sobbing. I hold her hand.

"Stop crying. It hurts to see you cry" I said.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry" she said then buried her face on my chest. I caressed her hair.

"It's okay. It's okay"

"I hurt you. Again"

"No. You didn't. Damn love stop crying" I said then wiped her tears.

"Stop crying now okay?" I said then gave her a tight hug. 

I don't care how many times you hurt me, I will always love you no matter what.